I have lived in a largely sexless marriage for over a decade. We had children via fertility treatment but my husband has always had a much lower sex drive. He also has a lot of issues from his past that make him very controlling and defensive around money - our finances run entirely separately, he has money I don't have access to for example.
After years of my begging for counselling, which he resolutely refused, I had a one night stand. I was appalled with myself and told him. I also said I believed our marriage was over and that I wanted a divorce. I'd already seen a solicitor, which he knew about, but like everything else, he just ignores things he doesn't want to hear.
He was furious about my infidelity but then calmed down a few days later, and said he recognised how far I must have been pushed to behave that way, and begged for us to stay together. For me, the damage is done, I'm so over being rejected and controlled by him. But he's booked psychotherapy and counselling, and been to the docs re sexual problems and some other health issues I'd nagged for years about.
I'm adamant I want us to separate as I simply cannot imagine him/us ever getting to a place where we have anything approaching a normal sex life, even if we fixed everything else. He is devastated and swings between desperate tears and promising me anything I want.
I don't want to hurt him, or rip him off or anything. He's an adoring father, and has no other family beyond us. He said the only way he will leave is if I "make him some promises" along the lines of eventually him moving back, not seeing anyone else etc. I've told him I can't promise him anything.
What do I do?
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Unravel my head please
Minervaowl · 28/11/2014 13:04
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