Name changed as a bit embarrassed to share how I really feel. I've posted about exbf before
I was in a relationship with a man who treated me badly. It was a classic EA situation - he was lovely to start with, like a dream Mr Right and then over time lost interest, started breaking dates, ignoring me, silent treatment etc. It was a very sexually charged relationship. I'm still in love with him. No idea why as he's a mean man but it's a deep rooted obsession.
We are no contact and have been for months. He finally pushed me too far so I told him I wasn't putting up with this any more. In the past we have had this kind of cycle, where we'd (Well him) would stop contacting me, then he'd re-emerge.
At the start, I felt very strong and powerful and all "right this is over". Over time, this has lessened and I now feel really down about the fact that he hasn't bothered to get in touch with me and try to get back with me.
It's got worse and worse. I am now really miserable (Depressed would be exaggerating but near that feeling). I am now at the point where I think about him all the time and check my email obsessively - hoping he'll get in touch. This is mental for all kinds of reasons - I'm better off without him, there's no reason why now he'd get in touch.
Anyway, my question is -
how do I snap myself out of these doldrums?
I feel like my life is on hold while I am waiting for him to get in touch with me.
Past cycles have shown this happens eventually. But right now I am torturing myself with thinking of him and how inadequate I must be for him not to want me.
I feel despairing of ever meeting anyone that I have that feeling for or chemistry with. And that even when I had it, it was with a man who thought I was worthless or not worth treating right.
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Help me stop "waiting". So low.
Ticktockticktoc · 14/11/2014 10:54
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