Have been meaning to read this book but haven't got around to buying it yet, would be interested/reassured if anyone can tell me what this means if anything please.
This evening I was walking from the train station to my house, a walk of about 15 minutes. About halfway home I suddenly noticed that I was feeling panicky. There wasn't any danger so I took some deep breaths and the feeling went away. But as I carried on walking, I noticed it come back two or three more times, and I inexplicably felt relief as soon as I closed the front door behind me. Now I feel better but still not really my normal self - almost as though my skin is crawling and a little bit buzzy/shaky with some occasional cold flushes. There is definitely nobody and nothing in this house that can harm me and it was a perfectly ordinary walk home which I have done every single Wednesday evening for the last 10 months or so.
In the interests of not dripfeeding, there was a man on the train who made me feel uneasy. I think this is totally irrational, because he often takes the same train and I have seen him lots of times before and he has never so much as looked at me funny. The reason he makes me feel uneasy is the smell of his aftershave and the fact that he wears his hair slicked back with a lot of gel. For some reason I find men with either (but especially both) of those attributes make me feel anxious and panicky. Tonight there were two men on the train with this particular kind of aftershave that I don't like. One of the men got off before me and the one who I've seen several times with the hair stays on after me.
It's not a normal thing, is it, to feel frightened about a man who was on a train ten minutes ago? I mean it might not have been that, but that was the only thing I could connect it to. Thoughts?
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