3 months and 2 days ago
Had a holiday abroad recebtly, a friend went in his place, he got himself into debt by deciding to go abroad at the same time as us but by himself.
He came back a new man- enthusiastic, helpful.... I felt positive that if take him back.
Then this week he's gone quiet, weird, yesterday at our sons birthday he threw a strop (dh) & after being horrible to his birthday boy son, didn't speak most of the day, not even to friends who were with us. I've never in over 9 years seen anything even resembling that kind of behaviour from him (he said some stupid things too), he behaved worse than our dcs!!
He's had a few excuses he keeps repeating
Like you said, I don't want him to get away Scott free, I want him to change jobs (he's married to his job I've always felt he put 1st over us, plus she still works there- although she does now have a bf), he's applied for plenty for nowhere yet...
But today and last night he's made comments like 'I wontvwait forever' 'you deserve better' 'I don't see any future for us'-- does he want to end it but it too much of a wuss and wants me to do the deed?
Or
Is he trying to make me feel bad so I'll say come home & stay in your job? (I wouldn't as I won't be with someone who behaves the way he has been, & feel that way he'd be getting away with it)
And
He keeps making comments about him going part time, me going full time working 6 nights a week paying all the bills! 1st I'd be a zombie (he works shifts but not overnights), we'd have no life that way, & why should he get more time with the children suddenly because he's had an affair?!!!!!
I'm so confused
I feel he's hiding something
But he's at work this evening so replies to messsges can take hours, I phoned him on his break but the line kept dying.
I can't help but feel he wants to come home just because he's gone from a comfortable life to being broke (paying his share here plus his own rent etc, and the loan he took out for his new car when I chucked him out- there was nothing wrong with the car he had!) & being home he'll have me paying for food etc.
Aarrghhh
But my cognitive behavioural therapy course starts soon :) hopefully that'll help me to think straight