I've posted on here before about my relationship.
Dp & I have been together 15 years. We have 4 dc.
Dp is very inoffensive. Goes to work. Goes for a pint one evening a month. Loves his gadgets.
That's it...
We don't have rows or arguments. We don't have discussions or conversation apart from basic day to day stuff.
I'm totally on my own with the dc. He takes no responsibility or interest. He's not horrible just not interested. He's never come to an open evening or meeting & as 2 if the dc have SNs there have & are many meetings! He ignored all ds medical appointments when ds was being assessed for ASD.
It's been a shite year. I've developed hideous PND. I'm literally sitting here crying my eyes out. He doesn't respond. He doesn't offer a hug or comfort.
Ironically i work with adults with ASD & my ds both have ASD but i don't think dp has ASD. He had a very bad childhood & will do anything to avoid confrontation.
When i look back over the years, I feel so sad. He was of so little support or help during some really difficult times. The pregnancies, a mmc, loss of parents, ds with disabilities etc etc. I always considered needing support to be weak so I thought I was wrong to expect it.
Yet when dp was made redundant & when he was life threateningly ill, I did everything to help him... I felt so grateful the other day that he hoovered. I realised I was grateful he hoovered!! in the name of God, he's my partner but when he did something a child could, I was grateful. It's all he did in the house this week.
I've told dp I can't do this anymore & want him to leave. So he booked a weekend away for the whole family. I've told him I'm not going. i don't have the energy to sort all the stuff to go away for a weekend away. The house is hideous as i haven't been keeping on top of everything due to the pnd & ebf, as well as looking after 3 dc, 2 with SNS.
Do I make any sense?
Part of me thinks I should be grateful he's not a lying, cheating womaniser but another part of me says I can't live like this. I don't not love him, I don't understand him or even llike him very much, anymore.
Am i doing the right thing?
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So sad after 15 years, I realise I can't do this anymore.
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Jellybellymummyofsix · 22/05/2014 16:51
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