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the ultimate betrayal - you were all right - think im in shock(44 Posts)
DH told me this morning he has had an affair - I think i'm in shock -I cant believe that he has done this to me. He has lied to everyone.
to cut a long story short I posted 3days before Xmas that he had come out with the "no longer loves me"- we got through xmas but by end of jan I had had enough & got him to leave. Midway through feb I found out he was majorly depressed & having a breakdown - he came home so i could look after him as he wasnt eating or sleeping & was a mess.
Today he tells me he has been having an affair with an employee that started before xmas & that he ended mid feb. He is the boss.
so after getting him over the worst of his depression & hearing him tell me he had wanted to end his life he goes on his first work meeting -ends up having dinner with her & doesnt come home when he says he will.
Today when I instigate a talk he tells me this & then tells me OW DH had phoned him yesterday basically threatening to tell me.
I dont really know why im posting on here as i know you are all going to tell me to get him to leave. i was so angry with him this morning I made him phone my DF & FIL to tell them that he had lied. They are both telling me not to act rashly. I have spent the day doing the garden - the kids know - in a moment of anger i said i would be better off if he had done something to himself - i have had to refrain from posting on OW twitter account.
I really dont know what I am going to do - i have even thought of taking revenge in a one night stand - just so I can tell him it made me feel good.
I just can't believe he has done this - 20 years married this year - infact i know what i am doing i dont want to believe it as i think i may fall apart
norest it wasnt really an affair - we ended other relationships before anything happened.
pinkballoon luckily enough i have a habit of writing all my thoughts down when going through a stressful period so have been looking at what was going on - i really dont know what i feel but reading some of my old thoughts I had questioned several times an OW. Also apparent how many opportunities i had given him to come clean.
miramar i am concerned he only told me when threatened by OW DH and yes he sent text. i am suspicious why he is not letting me have number unless he gets permission from OW DH - i think he is acting more out of something for her rather than me. He is visibly distressed,wracked with guilt & hates himself for all the lies he has told and I am not sure what this is going to do to him re his recovery of breakdown. DD has told him she hates him & what he has done is disgusting.
i have come across the gaslighting before and funnily enough passive aggressive personality was something that cropped up for him previously - although he denies this - as he would.
right now im not really sure what i feel - im switching between anger that hes done this and pity and in between just empty.
"OW DH had phoned him yesterday basically threatening to tell me."
Please forgive my brutality, but I am not sure of this at all. I suspect he needs to blame someone else for dropping this bombshell.
It reads as 'I couldn't help but tell you because I'm being victimised: I wouldn't be inflicting this hurt on you, but someone is making me'.
Sorry but he is not the victim but the perpetrator. Whatever is compelling him, he has done an awful lot of damage already, and this latest news is just another act by him to you.
About time you chucked him out to deal with the real world wouldn't you say? If after having some breathing space, you wish to reunite - then go for it.
If you want a good read then I recommend 'Detach and Survive' by 'Wives of Midlife Crisis Men'.
I'm in the same position as you but with a slight difference, in that my husband did not tell me. Like you I thought that my husband was depressed after his mother's death. Well, now I found the password to the email account he used with his new love, and that has been revealing. His mother died at the end of January 2013, and he met this woman two weeks later. They started going to hotels to have sex in April. All that time I was thinking about his mother's death when I saw him looking sad, he was sending emails to this woman saying in some detail what he wanted to do to her. I thought he was consumed with sadness and hardly able to function all those months, and was worried about him and trying to get him to work less. But in reality he was arranging holidays with her and talking about their favourite songs. When he was with me, I have no doubt that he felt bad: I thought he was consumed with grief, but in fact he was consumed with guilt around me. I asked him in July why he was acting so strangely and he angrily said "You know why!" as if I was a bitch to think it could be anything other than his mother's death that he was thinking about. You may need to reconsider/ reinterpret your husband's past behaviour.
thanks for all the replies - this is helping me get some clarity in my mind even though i had to resort to the ST last night to get some sleep.
Beleive me I am angry and yes he is a shit a liar & cheat & user too & add coward to the list - probably more.
I havent got to the bottom of the OW's DH telephone number yet but I will -
Im not completely convinced by what he has told me around this.
As for making him go - I have 2 concerns the first is him tipping back into breakdown - the 2nd he will go to OW despite what he has told me.
I am not going to make it that easy for him - if thats where he wants to go he is going to have to do this on his own - if I kick him out and yes I am angry enough to do it the kids will see again that it is me making him leave and he can convince himself he had no choice - im not giving that to him hes going to have to do it knowingly and the kids will be fully aware of what he is doing.
HE can go elsewhere if he wants but again he is going to have to make that move - I am doing no more for him.
As for staying here he is going to have to jump through hoops just for that and I shall be making several demands on him. He has said he wants to make everything right -whether this is guilt speaking or not i dont know.
I cant speak of a future i can only speak of right now & take it a day at a time and how far that progresses depends on how he reacts. One thing I do know is my gut instinct has always been spot on so I shall be paying far more attention to that from now on.
Sorry to hear your situation.
I think making him go for now is the better course though.
If he goes to her then that tells you everything, doesn't it?
If he gets depressed, as he did last time when you bailed him, then it's his problem.
Let your children see a strong woman not letting herself be walked over.
Shame you can't read his emails like me; not nice but definitely an antidote to worrying about his breakdown!
So if you allow him to stay, what kind of environment will your kids be living in? They already know what he's done and it's already affected your daughter.
Do you want her to think of you as strong or weak?
He's been taking the piss royally for ages - sorry to be so blunt, but you need to read other threads where wives have allowed their cheating husbands to stay and regretted it.
its over ive told him to go he wrestled me for his phone when i tried to grab it & and he forgot to tell me he still loves her
that gut instinct proved right
You have done the right thing OP.
Whether you want to work through this eventually or not, you need space from him at the moment. His 'depression' - funny, not belittling MH problems at all, but a friend's husband suddenly developed a MH issue on discovery of his affair which pretty much got him off the hook
Take this time to get counselling, re-evaluate everything and support your kids. Best of luck
Oh how painful.
Let him go. He's turned into a lying, cheating mess. You can't help him out of this one.
Take care of yourself now.
thanks all he has def been struggling but i think its the guilt of what he has done that has caused this-and not being able to face up to it.
it will be one day at a time - poor kids they are devastated & im not sure how this is going to affect them
If you don't kick him out - then you will forever be unable to trust him and will never get off the ADs.
This hell will never end if you just keep calm and carry on. You need a fresh start.
You will get through this! Take all the help you can.
If he has a breakdown - remember its not your fault, and you can't mend him (it didn't work last time).
The children will be upset, but a clean break is better (a bit like ripping a plaster off). Long term they can come through this fine, just work towards that goal. Do tell their school and ask school for support.
Think about yourself and your children, do something nice for you all.
Keep eating and drinking fluids. Look after yourself.
You will survive!
He's not struggling due to guilt, he's struggling due to not being able to have his cake and eating it!
If her were feeling guilty in the slightest, he'd have come clean when he saw you buckling with the AD/sleeping tablets.
He broke down due to ending his affair, and he expected you to put him back together. Despite it being him that broke it all.
There are special words reserved for people like him, but I actually can't think of any words bad enough myself, every swear word I know just doesn't cover it.
Your kids will be fine. He is the one that did all this, remember.
Keep posting, keep breathing, do nothing. Things will get better.
So sorry that you're going through this.
Just remember when you're talking it through with your DC the words you use can make a huge difference.
So you did not "kick him out" your ExDH broke the vows of your marriage, and when a marriage is broken the husband and wife can no longer live together, it was his choice to do that, not yours. You kept your vows, and honoured them and your marriage, he did not - the fault for the marriage break up lays squarely on his shoulders.
Remember that, and ensure you describe it in a way to your kids so they fully understand this was his doing, his choice and that you are hurting as much as they are. It sounds like your children are old enough to understand that.
The last thing you need on top of everything is your Ex trying to lay the blame at your door.
The only reason my ex-DH confessed about his affair to me was because the OW's partner of 20 years has found out and threatened to tell me.
Once that happens you have to looks at it not that they're so sorry that they felt the need to confess/own up/purge their soul, but they realised the crap they were in and protecting themselves.
Think long and hard as to why you haven't yet thrown this worthless person out - because believe me, you are worth so much more as are your DC's.
I'm so sorry this has happened to you. But you will get through it.
Sorry OP, but I think we had all realised (before you sadly) that that was the actual scenario. It was still going on, the OW's husband found out, and as we see on many threads in reversal about this when a MNer wants to ring the OWs husband and tell him, the OW's husband wanted to tell you what your disgusting excuse of a husband has been up to.
It has all come out because he was planning to go to her all along.
Now stop this worrying about him having another breakdown. If he does (and I doubt he really had one last time, guilt, and getting found out when you're fucking another man's wife can probably be dressed up quite nicely as a "breakdown") then his new woman can sort him out.
You concentrate on yourself, and the children.
op I feel for you. My dp told me he didn't love me anymore and walked out, out of the blue. I'm still in shock. He has previously had a breakdown many years before he met me and every one is suspecting another one. At first I was worried for him but now I'm mad. I could strangle him with bare hands.
I apparently depress him. News to me! He was sending I love you text two days before he fucked off .
I suspect an OW.
Horrible horrible feeling, I bet you sick to your stomach .
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