I have NC for this. I'm not a very regular poster, but even so I don't think I want to own up to being in this position.
I am 9 weeks pg with our second child. The pregnancy wasn't planned but wasn't prevented either. We had a few weeks of agonising over whether we would go ahead, because neither of us were massively keen on another child (complicated contraception issue, long story now resolved once and for all). Our daughter is 13 months old.
Eventually we decided that it would feel wrong to terminate what would be our daughter's only sibling and so decided we would go ahead. But - did we decide that? I know we had a conversation that went along those lines and my partner agreed that terminating would feel wrong but in truth we didn't discuss much in detail. I think I felt scared that if we discussed it too much, I would feel pressured into terminating. Anyway I registered with the midwife and we have discussed the future with 2 children a bit and, whilst neither of us are exactly delighted, I did think we were accepting of the situation. I'm sorry if that upsets some people; we love our daughter very, very much but I must admit the thought of another year of broken sleep, worry, etc etc and a further delay to our life getting back to some semblance of normal is very daunting.
Over the past week our daughter has been quite poorly and not her usual, easy self. Usually she sleeps through the night and rarely cries. This week has been hard. Last night my partner said that this has made him realise that he absolutely, 100% does not want another and that if I continue the pregnancy it would be absolutely against his wishes. Now I feel very, very confused. The thought of a termination terrifies me; the thought of another child terrifies me, but at least if we took that route I feel that I may be able to live with myself. But would I hate my life? I'm not someone who loves being a mum. I do enjoy it but mostly it's a slog. I know this will get better as she gets older, but why would I put myself through the baby stage again?
I just don't know what to do. I can't get my own views on termination straight, so how can I be expected to take his views on board as well?
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DP REALLY doesn't want this baby. I have no idea what to do.
devildeepbluesea · 16/04/2014 12:00
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