Depression may ruin all my relationships?!

[leedsgirl231]

I suffer from anxiety and depression. I can go from being very happy to wanting to cry all the time and need constant reassurance from everyone around me. I don't know what to do anymore; as I feel like people are getting sick of me, I know I am! I have nothing to be upset about, amazing SO, great job, loving family, social life all that jazz, so why am I so upset? Why do I need this constant reassurance? I feel like I'm going to lose everything I have because of it.
Help!

[CogitoErgoSometimes]

Are you receiving medical treatment?

[Nannyme1]

Do your friends and family know you are suffering? Have you talked to them and told them you are going through it cause if you haven't you probably will lose them cause they don't understand, friends can be so supportive if they just know what is going on.
Also have you been to the dr and getting some help for it?

[SheerWill]

Depression doesn't have any rhyme or reason, it can strike anyone at anytime. 1 in 4 people will experience it at some point in their lives and some like me have to battle the black dog days on a regular basis. You are not on your own. Family might not always necessarily understand but they love you and please speak to your dr as they can point you to good sources of therapy as well as medication. I went to evening classes to learn how to d with my depression and have an online course available for when I need a reminder of the cognitive behaviour therapy I had. I have mood swings like you describe and the medication really helps me to keep stable. You're not alone even though you may feel very much so at the moment. Cx

[leedsgirl231]

cog no, they've told me they won't do anything until I'm basically suicidal.
nanny yes I've spoke to them. they've told me to go to a better doctors, but I don't know how to go about it. The good doctors aren't in my area but I can't change to the one I want to change to, because I don't live in that area.
sheer thank you so much, means a lot x

[CogitoErgoSometimes]

Assuming you're in the UK with access to the NHS you can ask any GP for a second opinion. (You can also make a formal complaint if you've been fobbed off by your regular GP.) You don't have to live in the area or be registered with their surgery to get treatment. I've had house-guests from out of town visit my own practice, for example, and there's no problem. Most practices operate some kind of emergency surgery for urgent cases. Call up, book yourself in and take it from there.

[Minion100]

Try a book called "Overcoming Depression" because it has some great "natural" therapies for helping with it that can make a huge differencing. Depression and anxiety are often bed partners and come together. Often small changes in your life can make a big difference unless it is very severe. It sounds like your GP is very lax if they have refused treatment to you. I second the advice for you to demand a second opinion. It's a serious illness and you need support.

[Norest]

There is also a book called 'the mindful way through depression' which has a CD with it. It really really helped me with my depression and the exercises they give are things which are now being 'prescribed' via the NHS in some areas.

Good luck.

[leedsgirl231]

cog going to try that! my doctors gets called a "cattle market" because they get as many in, and get as many out without actually doing anything.
minion I will have a look for it. Don't have a lot of money right now so if I can get it as a pdf it'd be amazing. I don't want to feel like this anymore!
norest They wanted to send me to Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I turned it down because there is nothing wrong with my behaviour. I feel sad, im not breaking things because im angry!! I will keep all these things in mind.
At the moment, I'm happy. I feel good, but I might be sad in an hour's time. I don't know.

[rabbitrisen]

Hi
That last line sounds like it is something medical to me.

But did want to ask what your childhood was like? Was there anything traumatic in it?

Also there is something called called chemical imbalance depression, or something like that. Some people find that although everything is ok, the brain has gone a bit silly. And certain B vitamins[seems to be different to each person] are lacking.

[leedsgirl231]

rabbit My childhood was really good, mum, dad & little sister, good schools, good grandparents, never had a bad childhood. My life isn't bad and I have nothing to be upset about.

[Jesuisunepapillon]

Cognitive behavioural therapy doesn't address your actual behaviour (breaking stuff etc) it addresses your thought behaviours, as it were. It doesn't help everyone but it can be extremely helpful for many with depression. It helped me enormously. If you can go back and request that again, it might very well help you. Anything is worth a try.

[rabbitrisen]

Do you sit down a lot?
Can you think of anything that may have triggered it?
Excess alchohol?
Drugs or medication?
An underlying worry?

[leedsgirl231]

Rabbit I smoked a lot of weed when I was younger. I haven't in nearly a year and a half, I hate the stuff, Its become an irrational phobia. I feel its that, thats made me paranoid, and in turn it's gone into depression and such.
Papillion Well, the doctors told me to try this thing called The Mind Gym. I did it once and never went back to it, I forgot about it.

Does anyone think it might be to do with hormones? I have a borderline underactive thyroid and I take Levest 30/150, which is estrogen and progesterone. I also have more testosterone than I should have. I have experience unexplained weight loss, which isn't a symptom of underactive thyroid, quite the contrary actually. I've had blood tests and all sorts and they won't do anything to help me. the woman said "What did you expect me to do? we don't give out Thyroxine as you're on it for the rest of your life and you don't self harm any more so we can't give you anti-depressants. I think making myself sick with worry about things and telling myself i'm completely shit is a form of self harm! But she wouldn't do anything. she said they "avoid it at all costs." I think its the pill sending me loopy.