This is a long story I apologise in advance there's also 2 parts but all relative. I found out a few days ago that my husband cheated on me with a friend, I had guessed 2 years ago that something had happened but he lied for 2 year and made me think it was all in my head (i was pregnant at the time so very stressful) he also admits he had fancied her for a long time (even before we got together) I'm so heartbroken but more because he lied for so long and made feel I was going mad. Second part. Along time ago I was sexually attacked and raped which was a very dark time in my life but out if it came my lb so I pulled myself together for him, then not long after having him I met my partner, I have never told any one abt the abuse (I don't know why) but I opened up to his as I trusted him whole heartedly (which I think is a massive thing after what I'd been through) I later found him watching hypnotic porn (woman hypnotised so has no control) this freaked me out due to my past so I explained all this to him an he promised not to do it again (I don't have an issue with normal porn) but I also found on the iPad the other day the hypnoporn he now declares he can't see the problem, he's not sorry he looked just sorry he didn't clear the history, and basically it's my issues so why should he stop. I'm terrified if he enjoys seeing women with no control what if he wants that from me. We have 3 children now 6,2 and 13wks I'm worried of the impact on them but I can't even look at him, he is going to his mums for a few nights tonight. I just want to know if I'm being over the top and should get over myself
Only you can honestly answer that question nobody else can decide for you.
You have to consider all your options and what are personal deal-breakers for your relationship. Before doing anything hasty could you consider couples counselling? I hope you arrive at a solution that best suits your life and ultimately what fits with your ideal of a healthy happy relationship. No point me telling you what my deal-breakers are, i'm not living your life
Thankyou guys so much I also forgot to mention our 13wk old lg is quite poorly and stops breathing a lot so needs a lot of attention so I'm doing it all I don't think I have time to be fighting for his love when he can't fight for mine, thankyou all again it has certainly given me a lot to think about xx
You poor poor thing. This man is a very negative influence in your life and you and your children will be better of without him. I would be packing his bag right now. Will he leave if you ask? How are you set up financially?
I would also be very concerned about the hypnoporn, that surely has to create a very unhealthy relationship and understanding of sex and control? It's such a contrast to the idea of loving sex. That alone would be a deal breaker for me as I just couldn't mentally connect with someone who got off on that. Then to add in your past which you have confided in him, really is worrying. It's likely he has a porn addiction if he'd rather put his viewing before you.
Even if he didn't know about your past, it's up to you what your boundaries are.
Then we get to the cheating. I would like to believe I'd leave DH instantly if he cheated.
As others have said, it's up to you what your boundaries/deal breakers are so whatever you decide is right as it's best for you.