Long story, I will keep it as short as I can, just need to get it down really.
DM aged 83 is very unwell (acute osteoporosis, extreme pain etc). For the last 3-4 wks we have been in and out of A&E, then she was in hospital for 8 days, discharged home last week. She is on huge amounts of morphine etc, and slighly off her head really. I am doing most of the day to day caring (getting her up and to bed, meals 3 x a day, making sure she takes right drugs, getting doc/district nurse organised etc). Not a prob, she lives a 2 min walk from us.
Throughout all this, DB and I have spoken to each other on phone 2-3 times a day, both of us very concerned, and his advice about questions to ask etc was invaluable. I always thought DB and I had a fantastic relationship, although DM drives us both mad at times (but in that shout, snap, laugh about it kind of way). DB's relationship with DF was appalling, I was the golden child. DF died nearly 18 years ago.
Anyway, DB and SIL came on thurs (200 mile drive) to stay a couple of nights to cheer DM up, look after her, give me a break etc. On fri morning I went round to say hello, keep on top of household stuff and so on. DB was in the most horrible mood - atmosphere appalling - and DM was a bit whingy about her pain (understandably). DB suddenly wnet off on of the most appalling rant - she was a selfish old bitch, she didnt have to take her meds but then she had to accept the pain, everyone trying their best etc, and then all this stuff about his awful childhood came spilling out, how she'd never helped him (she did, I would watch her trying to deflect DF's temper, she sent him money for years when he was poor, even stealing from the till at work). At one point I stood between her and him and shouted at him to stop, but it was like he wasnt really there behind his eyes.
So clearly he is very bitter; but what he did was so awful. I spoke to him a couple of hours later, told him I'd always idolised him and that now my idol had clay feet. SIL later said that this is his reaction to worry - he did the same to her when she was having chemo. FFS, what kind of person does that to their vulnerable wife or mother? SIL has been fantastic btw in terms of trying to help me and smooth things out.
Now we are at the stage where DM is devastated, thinks she's lost her child forever. I think I've lost my DB, or certainly the one I thought I had. I'm just trying to get my head around it all.
I can understand having a shit childhood and how that fucks you up, but he is nearly 60 and has worked in mental health for 35 years. I think he needs some help, but very much doubt he will take it - doctors child and all that.
Can anyone help me make sense of this?
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boschy · 22/03/2014 23:25
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