Whenever I've posted on mumsnet it has always helped me to work through difficult situations and I've found the advice given on here invaluable. So I'm experiencing another issue and would really appreciate anyone's opinion.
Background:
One DD who will be 3 on Sunday, broke up with ex over 2 years ago. He was emotionally and physically abusive and DD and I ended up spending some time in refuge. However, not excusing or minimising his behaviour at all but to update, he has been doing a perpetrator programme for around 5 months now, has admitted to everything even in court and is basically playing a much more positive role in DD's life. I have no plans to get back with him and I truly believe he has no plans to get back with me. Although it is sad and of course I have thought about it, the reality is it would never work, I would never trust him enough and I now have far more confidence than I ever did and know I deserve better.
This year will be the first year that it may be possible for XP to see DD on her birthday. We have been working well together for DD and very rarely argue - any arguments have always been resolved and no physical violence has occurred since the end of our relationship. we have split Christmas presents and now all the costs for her birthday between us and he has offered to make food for her party and has bought things for party bags etc. It's annoying (beyond belief really) that this is the first year he has done this but all the same I am glad to have some help and it is so good to be able to cooperate and do nice things for DD together.
DD is having a traditional party at home with her friends and a few of my close ones. She has asked several times for her Dad to come. As I no longer fear my ex and seeing as things have been going well with no major abusive situations for about a year and half , I feel that I would be comfortable with this and would be happy that DD would be happy to have her dad here. I thought I should run it by a couple of friends first just to give them a heads up that he may be coming and I've had quite a negative reaction. They've said things like 'he doesn't deserve to be there' 'it would make me (friends) feel awkward' 'why would you want him in your house?' and just generally made me feel like I must be mad for even thinking it might be a nice idea. I appreciate they care and I understand why they say these things but perhaps they don't understand that actually this is our life and we have to live with it everyday!
I personally feel that I have lived with abuse and the after effects for several years now and I am sick and tired of domestic violence being associated with who I am. I'm not just a victim, I'm a strong person, a mother, a friend, a real person with interests and ambitions. I'm not depressed and scared every day and I hate having to be reminded about that terrible time. I'm not in denial, I will never forget or make light of what he did to us and how much pain he caused me but he is going to be in my life and DDs for at least the next 15 years , so if its going well and we are being amicable and he is helping out, then surely this is the best thing? yes he doesn't deserve to be there but DD deserves to have a nice birthday and the best possible relationship with her dad as is possible. my dd is becoming more aware of relationships and life in general and I don't want her to pick up on anything or think her parents have a weird relationship because we can't communicate when in fact we are able to get on very well. Sorry this is so long, just want to know what you think, is this a step too far to try and have a good relationship with DD's dad despite the past and is it reasonable to have him at her birthday party?
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AIBU to try and get along with my ex abusive partner for the sake of my DD
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mamatomoomin · 04/03/2014 18:49
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