My DH and I have been together for over 15 years. In all this time I have had problems with insecurity and jealousy. But in all fairness he does make it easy for me.
He has a problem with alcohol. If he goes out he comes in smashed, he can't just go for a couple, as he says he is, its all or nothing, he doesn't go where he says hes going, comes in hours after a time he says hes going to be, hes said hes going to the local pub then phoned me at 2am saying hes in the local city centre in a nightclub. He gone to a topless bar and not told me until a week or so later - all this is a back drop of me being a SAHM looking after 3 DC, (plus I never go out, and I mean never!) last time I went out was when I was pg with my first DC and it was a family meal.
Anyway ..... lately I have been feeling my age, feeling down, etc. One Friday night DH came home from work, obviously drunk, I asked him and asked him if he'd had a drink - he denied it. Until the Sunday when I asked him again - he admitted it. I then asked him to choose the alcohol or me, I was surprised but he chose me, all good you would think, but now I go back the jealousy, I have wondered in the back of my mind all this time, if the times hes been lying as per above and especially the latest incident if he was cheating, he denies it of course but the ideas there.
After this latest incident I have basically said I don't believe a word he says and I think he has cheated.
Now this week I have found out that he has changed this password on his phone and not told me. I found out as my DD also knows the passwords to all the phones and asked to use his phone but couldn't unlock it, he said pass it back and put his finger on it to unlock it and never spoke another word about it. I waited till the DC were in bed to raise the issue and asked him why he hadn't told me all day what the password was and why did he change it.
I have always known all the passwords, and he knows all of mine, that's one thing that's never been an issue - he said he was messing with his phone and he forgot to tell me, its not an issue and he did try to tell me the code - but I got on my high horse and told him not to bother, if he wanted to keep secrets he could - obviously that's backfired on me now as I can't check his phone as I have been able to in the past.
I have said to him that I am going to get through Christmas and the we are going to have a talk about splitting up.
He thinks I 'm crazy and thinks I making things bigger than they are.
What do I do?
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needtowriteitdown · 17/12/2013 07:05
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