So. Me and DH; together 10 years, met at work, married six years, DD 5 , DS 3, still work in same office, all good, soulmates, lots in common. Great. Love him to bits. He is very gorgeous. Tall, dark, handsome.
On the other hand I am 10 years older than him, on 2nd marriage after 1st abusive one. Last year we had a blip. Separated for a couple of weeks, had got into a rut with kids and work, took each other for granted, sex fell off, both miserable. After a week or two he came back; he really wanted to try again. We perked up the sex, tried to talk more, get away for weekends, do date nights etc. On the face of it all is rosy.
But. A year ago boss got a new secretary. Extremely pretty. Young, maybe 10 years younger than DH. So 20 years younger than me. Also slim, which I am not. She is recently married and her DD is in same local school as ours. I thought nothing of it for a long time. Then couldn't help noticing her always stopping by his desk. Twiddling her hair and giggling. Bringing him cake. Asking him what he thinks of her new boots. Showing him her photos on her phone. I am so not the insecure type. If we meet or pass her in the work canteen or in the street she is gazing up at him all sparkly eyed and smiling. Waiting for him to look back at her. He rigidly ignores her because I have pulled him on it and I think he is afraid to look at her in my presence. They are forever chatting in the corridors or emailing each other 'about the kids'. She throws me dirty looks.
She is so his type. She is the only female under 40 in the whole unit. She is really, really pretty.
Its driving me nuts. I don't mind if he fancies other women. Of course he will. I don't mind if he has had enough of me. That's life. Nothing lasts forever.
What I really really do mind to an insane degree is being made a fool of. Being the last to know. Having to worry about this shit.Being the topic of office gossip. I am not the high moral ground type. I would let rip. I imagine our kids with a part time dad. I imagine her DD with my DH, while our DD, who idolises her dad, only sees him on weekends.
Seriously, its driving me nuts and I have no idea how to deal with it. It is making me Ill. What can you do about potential infidelity? Nothing had happened between them yet but the crazier I get the more likely it will. I fear I will just pre-emptively end the marriage on the strength of something that hasn't even fucking happened yet. Talk about a self fulfilling prophecy.
What do I do?
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twicemarriedtthriceshy · 07/12/2013 00:13
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