H & I separated in July after 23 yrs together, I'd been with him since I was 15. While the first half of our marriage was wonderful, the second half became gradually worse & worse until I've been left feeling like a shell of my former self.
It's only now he's gone that I'm starting to realise how much of the 'old me' has been hidden by the stress of my marriage. It's making me very angry tbh .
Now the fog has lifted I've come to think that it's really damaged me & I'm desperately hoping it's only temporary & I can find 'me' again. My confidence is shot to pieces. I cannot accept any kind of compliments at all because I can't quite believe that anyone could be so nice about me. Simple acts of kindness (and there have been a lot) throw me. People's offers of help turn me into a quivering mess because I feel like I don't deserve them. I've always done everything myself with no help so why can't I just be grateful?
I think my marriage has made me like this. There were no kind words or compliments, no closeness, no hugs etc for many years. I've learnt to manage without them.
I'm rambling a bit but how do I let people back in and become that happy, fun-loving person I used to be? I feel like I've built up an iron wall around me that I can't let down.
Can I be me again?
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RollerCola · 01/11/2013 18:07
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