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Any positive experiences on abusive men changing for the better (and for good)(31 Posts)
I have finally realised dh has been verbally and emotionally abusing me, controlling me and keeping me on eggshells. At a friend's recommendation I read "why does he do that" and the scales fell from my eyes. It's just all so clear now. We have 2 ds, 3and 5. If it weren't for them I would just walk out. It's also for them I'm changing things because I don't want them to grow up seeing this (anymore). He has accepted that his behaviour is abuse, saw gp Friday and referred to someone else for Wednesday. The book says these are good signs but also says few abusive men really change and when they do it can take years of hard work. I'm not sure I have the energy for it, only to leave anyway later. But I want to try my best for the children. Any hope out there?
We know most don't change...and even if your dp (or mine) did...could you (I) trust that they had? Could you (I) face policing the relationship for ever more? After all...they could have changed before, they could and I believe do see what they are doing...why should we have to hold them to ransom before they take responsibility?
However it was the fuel behind me getting out...the thought that he might change, become the man I had worked with and thought he was...he has just gone on to prove that he is the person who would and will abuse, manipulate distort and hurt those he claims to love...thanks "D"H, you've made it all so much clearer.
I split from my abusive ex 15 years ago . He's had years of counselling and he's still abusive. So IMO, no they don't change
mine abused me for the 8 years we were married and then on after with the contact that I had to have because of DD
He abused the next woman. she did a runner in the night on his birthday when she knew he would be gone until the next morning.
He put the next one in hospital several times
He carried on in a similar manner with several other casual relationships.
He wont change
Very interesting to hear people's experiences. Right now I am feeling like we will need to separate. Now that I realise what he's been doing for so long I'm not sure I can get over it (or want to try). I'm not making any rash moves. We'll see what the solicitor says tomorrow. It has been liberating to finally tell the truth to my friends and family. They weren't really surprised and they are on my side.
This is an interesting thread.
DH has been in counselling for his abusive behaviour for six months now. He's really trying and the abuse has stopped but I'm not sure I can get past it.
I feel angry about the past, the way he's treated me, what I've put up with, the things he's ruined.
Now I can see things for what they are, my feelings have changed. He's not who I thought he was and I not sure we can move on from it. Interesting to see others have managed it though....not sure I'm the forgiving type.
I would like to tell you that there is hope - but that leaving is always a good option too.
In my case, i was on the verge of walking out and would have if he hadn't changed. There are things I will never forgive and things I still don't understand, but I can say that he is now a changed man and has been for about 6 months.
I don't mean that he is simply going through one of the "good" cycles, because i saw that often enough to know it was all fake and leading up to something "bad".
his change seems real to me and believe me, I am careful, watching every word, every look and each and every criticism for underlying motives.
What happened was he accepted his behaviour was wrong, he looked for answers in books and did the freedom program. we talked about everything. he apologised and still does - often. he stopped blaming me for his behaviour. He regrets the fact his actions had an effect on our children and me.
The shouting stopped immediately, the arguments became quieter and more rational and eventually the arguments became less and less. We communicate much more and I am slowly learning to love him again wholeheartedly.
For me the best bit is that finally - maybe just in the last month - the fear has gone. the eggshell feeling has gone. I no longer fear normal text messages, i no longer hate the sound of his car in the drive, I no longer wish he wouldn't come home and I no longer feel scared to voice my opinion. I felt terrified at first that i would never get over it. And to be truthful it took a long time and there were times when I felt that I was Broken and that he had broken me. i was so angry about that. but that feeling has passed. With each and every day that he is kind, open, talkative, sympathetic, understanding and genuine - I trust him more.
We have now come to understand where the anger came from and learned to put it aside.
he is by no means perfect and I do not have rose tinted specs. He ashamed of his behaviour and i am sad I allowed it to continue so long. maybe if I had been willing to leave earlier, he would have improved sooner.
I think it was very hard work for him in the first few months. He struggled with why i was still angry. he found it hard to disagree with me fearing i would accuse him of being EA. But in time we have reached a middle ground where we can both express our grievances in an open way. I feel heard for the first time and it feels incredible.
I wish you the best in your journey and I think that the first step is to feel that you can walk away. because only at that point will you know you have nothing to lose and he will realise that he has everything to lose.
I wish that we had undergone this process apart because I think I would have healed more quickly - so having some time apart might be beneficial for you.
I'll be watching this with interest. My DH has exhibited some abusive behaviour. He left last week and he has since admitted to me he's terrified of hurting me or DD and he would rather die than do that. He is calling the mental health team today (under my supervision, he's scared of doing it) and we'll go from there. I know we can't carry on like this, and so does he, if he can't change then we're finished and HE is the one who is implementing that...so I hold out some hope. He has every right to be very angry at the world but I can't put my life on hold forever waiting for him to deal with his issues.
Good luck OP, stay strong.
I think the point there is, though, Pictish, that you left and he knew you wouldn't come back unless there was very real change. It helped him reach his personal rock bottom, as it were. If there is a good person somewhere under the bad behaviour, carrying on putting up with the bad behaviour is not going to help them change. Zero tolerance might - if they have the strength of character to learn from it. And if they don't, at least you're out of there.
I am very wary of offering false hope or aiding someone to continue in their abusive relationship, so I rarely mention the fact that we survived and healed from abuse.
Women in these situations will cling to any shred of light, and I do not want to be the person dangling it in front of them. The vast majority of abusive people do not change.
I don't have the time to go into the whole story atm, but will return later to fill you in if you are interested.
The short version is that I walked out three years ago having had a gutful of his anger, self righteousness, bullying, demanding and control. He was never violent, and I always stood up for myself...but over time his behaviour deteriorated to such a degree that I was completely unwilling to put up with another minute of it. I was utterly miserable.
We did get back together after some time apart, and since then there has no return to the abusive behaviours. He is a different fish these days.
However, I know that my story is highly unusual and not the norm. When it comes to advising women on here who are in similar situations, I tell them to leave and not look back.
I will answer any questions anyone has, in an hour or two, as I need to go out shortly.
good luck. I have a similar situation to you. will PM you sometime !!!!
keen to hear what soliciter says
that said, the fact he even wants to go for treatment is slightly encouraging.....
mine didn't (hasn't).... so far he has had 2 years of individual counselling, anger management course, stress management course and a full length abuse perpetrators course.
The net effect seems to be it wasn't his fault it was "circumstances/his upbringing/my upbringing/my behaviour/the children/stress/artistic temperament , money worries, not being recognised as the genius artiste that he is and treated appropriately"
In my life this means he is now a highly manipulative abuser with lots of the right phrases to win others over but no change at all.
I do have a friend whose husband exhibited many abusive traits...he had a difficult upbringing, some mental health issues and lacks emotional empathy...when she confronted him with his behaviour he did change...he asked her to list the 10 worst behaviours, set up systems to help him change his reactions and expectations, put up a whiteboard in the kitchen to remind him of trigger/flash points and worked very very hard to change then he went to therapy, then he asked his wife for more feedback 2years on they are in a completely different place.But he is still working and asking for help...
The main difference I see is that whilst he had abusive behaviours he was not an "entitled man" he valued his DC and his wife above himself. IMHO "abusers" get so much fuel for their selfishness and feel so justified in doing so that it is very very hard to re-wire them.
Hi, OP- just to say go.I was in the same situation- from European country, 3 DC. I left him (well, made him leave) now almost 5 years ago. Had moved from Wales to Home Counties the year before, so no friends or family. Sole earner/ him being sahd.
We survived. Childcare fell into place surprisingly quickly once I was forced to get on with it.
Best thing I ever did!
Interestingly, he hasn't seen DCs for over 3 years now- not interested since there isn't a free ride attached anymore
I left my ex he abused me for years the final straw was when he beat me up in front of our children , I took him to court and prosecuted him but he only had to have some relationship course for a couple of months .
His treatment of me never changed in 18 years he's with someone else now I'm waiting for the day she calls me as I'm sure that day will come ....
Thanks everyone. Feeling very sad because I know you are right. Trying to put in place the building blocks to leave. Key thing is childcare. We moved here last year from London. I am from another country and have no family or network where we are now. I know I can do it - just working through the options and implications.
Do you really want to spend the rest of your life policing your partner's behaviour for signs of relapse? What kind of a relationship would that be? Let alone the fact that you're in a very poor position to do that anyway, since your boundaries have been skewed from childhood. And that by staying, you are removing the only real consequence to his abusive behaviour that might make your abuser uncomfortable enough to seek change.
Glad you're seeing a solicitor. I predict that when you do end things with him, he will throw his current actions in your face: "But I went out of my way to accommodate you by seeing GP and getting counselling!". Abusers do not like doing things that aren't for their own pleasure; he will for evermore consider that you "owe" him.
My abusive ex had a couple of years of intensive therapy after we split and I often wondered if he had managed to change his ways.
I got my answer when he tried to contact me 4 years after we split. By calling me and sending sexually suggestive text messages at 4 o'clock in the morning.
I guess the answer was 'no' then.
Even if your H is one of the very small number who will change, it is going to be a long slow process to do so. Why should you and your children suffer in the mean time? Much better that you separate now, he sorts his shit out on his own watch, and you keep an open mind about reconciling in the future if he is successful.
I'm really pleased you're seeing a solicitor. Now that you're wise to what's going on and understand the likely prognosis, you'll benefit hugely from careful planning.... and I mean that mentally as well as practically. I think, once you research it a little and discover that you're actually in quite a strong position, you'll find it gives you the confidence and courage to stop treading on eggshells and to reject him instead. Good luck.
No, I'm sorry I haven't either. You can't change him, only how behave. Good luck op.
It is great you have realised and he has taken some advice. If he sticks to it he is 20% ready for recovery but sadly, research tells us (me as a person who works with families who re in DA relationships) that abuse is a learned behaviour that comes from the early years, it is as hard to change as true addictions, nail biting, nose picking and over eating. There are schools of thought that say an abuser is in training from age 2.
I see your reasoning however, My advice would be that you leave him whilst he has the therapy (should b at least 6months), get some support for yourself such as a BOOST group or Freedom Programme which will support your self esteem and ability to form relationships that are positive and then, when he says he has "changed" and you have clear evidence, trust and confidence in this, try more contact.
Prioritise your children's need for a safe, secure and non abusive (even indirecty) environment.
Sorry for the long speak but hope it helps with perspective
There has to be consequences for them if they are to change. Bancroft reiterates that constantly in his book. There has to be zero tolerance too from you, his immediate family too along with friends, GP, therapist (and a very specific therapist would be required I'd imagine - the type that Lundy Bancroft is) etc.
Because you are asking this question I am assuming that you are still living with him? Where are the consequences for him of not changing? It isn't good enough for you to threaten to leave. You have to actually leave and take your children with you. He has to do this by himself.
So no I don't think that they do change. Not without a great deal of work (years) and even then I think it would be easy for them to fall back into their abusive ways if you don't keep being intolerant of it. It would be completely exhausting for you.
Thanks everyone. I will look at the freedom programme. I'm seeing a solicitor tomorrow (he doesn't know). I work ft and he is sahd so key thing is to make sure I don't lose my children. I know the consequences - I grew up in the same kind of house and ended up being furious with my mother for not protecting us and herself, and also blaming her for not just doing what my father wanted (not realising this was impossible). Our relationship has never recovered and I realise now how much she suffered. I won't have the same with my children.
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