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Coping strategies needed (probably tmi)

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Toastandstrawberryjam Sun 15-Sep-13 10:14:03

This isn't an easy subject to ask about and possibly some people will find it distasteful and for that I apologise.

I need coping strategies to help me get through having sex with my H. For reasons I can't go into leaving is not an option for a few years. It just isn't. I wholly wish it was.

But because we are not intimate with each other (my choice) tension is very high in the house. Intolerably so. The only answer to this (and I know because I know it's all that works) is for me to recommence relationships with a man who quite frankly makes my skin crawl. He is EA and has no respect for me, not exactly a turn on.

The last time I finally gave in after a month of demands, I felt ill and dirty for days afterwards. Is there anyway (other than getting very drunk) I can cope better with this? Meditation gets me through the act, so to speak but the thoughts afterwards are the problem.

I'm wondering if it's better done in the morning, hold it together and get the kids to school after then a very hot bath and try to blot it out. Sleeping afterwards never works.

I know it shouldn't be like this. I just need help getting the next few years out of the way. Any ideas?

roz1982 Mon 16-Sep-13 14:26:54

Seriously age, if this is not coercion why don't you name it for us.

EhricLovesTeamQhuay Mon 16-Sep-13 14:27:03

If her life is made unbearable and her children are being abused as a direct result of refusing to have sex then she is being coerced. I don't think you understand the definition or concept of coercion. If any kind of pressure, emotional blackmail or punishment is used to coerce someone into 'consenting' then the consent is not valid = rape.

MatildaWhispers Mon 16-Sep-13 14:35:55

age this really is not as bizarre as you might like to believe. And calling it that doesn't help anyone who might be considering trying to talk to a professional about such a situation. toast you would be understood by professionals at RC or WA, they would totally understand and would not see this as bizarre or weird or make you feel ashamed in any way.

ageofgrandillusion Mon 16-Sep-13 14:43:47

We know he is a moody bastard when they havent had sex for a while.
We know things settle down for a bit following sex.
But has a conversation ever taken place about this? - ie "have sex with me or i will make yours and the kids lives hell."
We simply dont know if that conversation has taken place. The OP has concluded herself that having sex is the best way to keep the peace, so to speak.
It is a very disturbing situation. But is she being coerced? In her own mind she doesnt have a choice. Many posters here think actually she does have a choice.
My point is this - this is far from black and white. The OP herself has witheld some information which may also answer questions. There simply is not enough information here to say that this is coercion and therefore rape.
Fwiw, i think this is a very sad situation. I wish the OP well.

EhricLovesTeamQhuay Mon 16-Sep-13 14:49:36

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roz1982 Mon 16-Sep-13 14:52:16

What difference does it make whether that 'conversation' has taken place or not? OP has explained that that is the case. Just because he has not directly said that to her, doesn't change the reality of the situation. Is OP's word not enough? We have to take her at her word.

The words coercion and choice are completely juxtaposed and yet you use them in the same substance which really does highlight just how clueless you are. Your posts are unhelpful; very much so.

'We know he's a moody bastard when they haven't had sex for a while'

Your an idiot.

roz1982 Mon 16-Sep-13 14:53:01


CailinDana Mon 16-Sep-13 14:54:03

So a man can get away with treating his wife and children like shit as long as he doesn't say he's doing it?

roz1982 Mon 16-Sep-13 14:57:18

The information that OP has decide to withhold are her reasons for staying. She has been very forthcoming on the main issues we are discussing - his emotional and sexual abuse of her.

MatildaWhispers Mon 16-Sep-13 14:57:22

The OP may be at a point where, if she has the conversation and he won't accept her saying 'no' and then forces her in whatever way to have sex (maybe a very subtle way I don't mean leap on her and viciously force her necessarily) she will be forced to accept she is being raped.

If she avoids the conversation, she can pretend she is in control and managing her feelings and coping fine.

ageofgrandillusion Mon 16-Sep-13 14:59:48

Your an idiot
I'm sure even you can see the irony of that post Roz.

roz1982 Mon 16-Sep-13 15:06:15

No, sorry.

roz1982 Mon 16-Sep-13 15:06:59

If you are referring to a grammatical error, bravo, well done. Please stop posting now.

roz1982 Mon 16-Sep-13 15:07:18

{clutching at straws}

Toastandstrawberryjam Mon 16-Sep-13 15:07:27

Hi I just wanted to say thank you for everyone's input. I have been reading the posts although I'm not quite sure I understand everything that's being said. I need to sit down with a cup of coffee and try and make sense of it all. Thanks again.

LurcioLovesFrankie Mon 16-Sep-13 15:28:44

Big hug.

You have (quite rightly, because it might identify you) chosen not to explain why you feel you can't leave (and you do not need to justify every bit of your decision to people on the internet) and I do understand that there are circumstances which might make it very hard for you (circumstances which are far from trivial). At the same time, it might be that you are so beaten down mentally by this man that you can't see the wood for the trees, and there is an exit strategy that you haven't seen yet. But either way I see that you're talking to people in RL about this, which is good.

And I hope you can find a way forward, and I hope that the vast majority of us have helped you to understand that what this man is doing is horrible, and that in an ideal world you should not have to put up with it (and I hope that possibly even in this far-from-ideal world we've helped you to think about some alternatives to lying back and bearing it).

I hope that you and your children escape from this awful situation as soon as possible.

Capitaltrixie Mon 16-Sep-13 16:26:15

Glad you're ok toast.
Good idea, sit down, read and try to process it all. I'm hoping it starts to make sense and you find a way to see clearly what you need to do and ultimately become strong enough to leave (soon).

I'm so sorry you've previously had your boundaries shot to oblivion. As a side issue, you've mentioned counselling (and it sounds like it's been helpful), but it might be worth seeking out some other therapy or even going down the path of DBT (dialectal behavioural therapy, rather than cognitive).

EhricLovesTeamQhuay Mon 16-Sep-13 16:29:51

Have a <hug> and some flowers and take a step back to think about this and process it all.

It's quite scary, reading hundreds of women telling you your life is damaging you and your children, and your choices are wrong. But you are so far inside the abuser's rabbit hole that you can't see clearly. That doesn't mean a word of what has been written here is not correct (apart from one poster's very skewed perception of consent) so please do give it some serious consideration.

Dillie Mon 16-Sep-13 16:50:00

Up until 5 months ago I was in a similar situation to you toast

My ex didn't exactly force me into sex, but he sure made my life miserable saying I was selfish, frigid and a lesbian! The fact that he made my blood turn cold didn't seem to matter. In the end I just put up with it and got the deed done, knowing that he wouldn't make the days following miserable. If he didn't get any he would sulk, shout and generally be a real twunt.

Like you I waited a few years until my dd grew up a bit and my finances were secure(ish). Looking back now I so wish I got out 7 years ago.

Those 7 years destroyed me. I am a shadow of what I used to be until I met this 'man'. Zero confidence, trust no one and have very few friends. He saw to that!

I left the following week my 8 year old dd stuck up for me. Only then did I open my eyes and took off the rose glasses, saw what was really happening and stopped praying and hoping it would get better. Believe me, it doesn't. I hated myself for allowing my dd to not only see but understand what was going on. She didn't have to be told, she knew. They are far more in tune than we give them credit for.

I am in therapy now which is helping. Was not until my therapist said it is rape and psychological abuse that it hit home what a doormat I had become, just to keep the peace. Now that I am working on accepting it was what it is, I can now start to heal.

I appreciate that now is not the time for you to leave, start planning at least. Please don't leave it too long, as sometimes tomorrow never comes and it is easier and far less scary to stay put.

Look after yourself.

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