I jus don't know how.
I've nc for this and there's a tonne I could write but here's the main bits.
We have been together 7 years and have dd 3 years.
the last year or so has just been fucking awful. He resents the fact that I'm a sahm and don't contribute financially to rent and bills ect. I get 20 paid into my bank per week which is family allowance. This HAS to last a week and if i doesnt it tough shit till next week basically, out of this I need to buy food for all 3 of us for the week, toiletries for me and dd and anything else she needs. everyday he tells me in useless and pathetic for not working and relying on family allowance to feed dd This hurts more than all the names he calls me.
I have no friends to talk to, he says its because I'm fat and ugly and an embarrassment to been seen with.
He constantly puts me down and makes me feel like shit.
I have been having a lot of panic attacks lately he mimics the same sounds and laughs at me along with been verbally abusive towards me.
I only have to look at him the wrong way for the name calling to start. That then spirals physically with him throwing plates ect at me or kicking and spitting at me.
There have been a few occasion s when dd has heard him scream names at me and he just laughs and calls me pathetic
I knew I am stupid for staying this long but seriously didn't know how I could leave with literally £20 in my bank and nowhere to go.
So please anyone go any advice in the first step out.
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I think I need to leave
Learnyourabc · 26/08/2013 23:28
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