Jerking me back to a wobble fest

[waddlecakes]

If you look back at a past thread I made, you'll see that I was with a really charismatic, unreliable arty guy with MH issues, and it ended. We both knew it was leading up to this, but he finally took control of it and ended it.

I got over it fairly quickly. We'd only been seeing each other for a year, and it was very slow to progress.

Since things ended at the beginning of the summer, I've only ever thought of him in passing, and with no real emotion other than a slight tinge of regret. We've seen each other once since, and it wasnt bitter, it was fine. But I still felt that tinge.

Tonight I was out, had a few drinks, and swung by his to pick up some earrings (normally I would rather avoid someone and just abandon things, except these earrings are gold and were given to me by my gran, so I have to get them back). I rang the bell and saw on the name tag his name was no longer there, so I called him. He answered, we had a really good chat, turns out he's away on holiday and will be back on the 20th. I'm moving country a few days after that, so we agreed to meet when he got back to catch up, say goodbye, and he would give me my earrings.

I can't help but feel pathetic and I know I've been drinking but...just hearing his voice and the thought that it is 100% likely that I will never, in the rest of my life, due to moving countries ever see him or again or speak to him again after next time, just fills me with intense sadness.

Is this normal?