Brutal honesty time... Decided not to name change.
I'm in my early 20s. I have had two boyfriends and plenty of male attention.
My first boyfriend and I were together from the age of 15 until 19, and he was abusive the entire time. I got out after four years, a bruised, tortured, depressed shadow of who I used to be.
It took me years to recover. I forced myself back on the dating horse, and dated casually, but never managed to trust anybody with my heart or my body. Thus none of these relationships lasted long enough to even be called relationships, though I did make some good friends and my confidence slowly returned.
2 and a half years after getting out of my abusive relationship, a long term friend asked me out. Not my usual type, I said yes. He had been good fun in some really low times and I thought he might be more considerate. Alas no, 6 months down the line, he'd been sleeping with 3 women behind my back and is now boasting about shagging a stripper to mutual friends.
I'm just feeling so hopeless, like ill never love again and have that reciprocated. My worst fear is ending up alone and childless.
Can somebody please reassure me that you didn't meet him until you left university, started work, was a real grown up. All my friends are settled with partners and I'm so jealous of their happiness.
And anyone who wants to tell me that my exes are dickheads would be very well received too. :(
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At what age did you meet your spouse..? Feeling hopeless and lonely.
AllegraLilac · 25/05/2013 01:00
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