Fairly recently, I have realised that I quite often do things because it pleases other people - but not necessarily me.
For example, I was emailing a man that I had a fling with years ago, who pops up on my email every so often, and we'd exchange sexy emails for a while, and then he'd disappear again. My thoughts at the time was that it was a bit of fun, it's flattering that he finds thinking of me exciting, and he obviously enjoys it.
One day it suddenly hit me though that I wasn't enjoying it. I felt cheap, and used, and I realised that I was doing this entirely because it pleased him.
I was writing an journal at the time, exploring how I felt about various things, and this highlighted that I wasn't actually happy. So I told him that I wasn't going to email him any more because I was looking for a relationship, and am working on my self esteem. This was fine, and he hasn't emailed since.
This is just one example of pleasing people, although looking at it, there are a few similar types of thing.
Anyway - recently I've met a guy, we've gone out for a drink once and met for a coffee too.
We've texted a few times, most recently in the early hours of this morning (he works nights, so was in the office). I was awake at 4.30, so responded, just normal chit chat sort of stuff, and then he said that he'd enjoyed kissing me. I fell asleep then, so didn't respond. Later on, he texted to say that he was going to bed, and would I mind if he thought about me.
Actually, yes, I do mind. So I told him, by text, that I'm a person not a sex object, and that he doesn't know me well enough yet to think of me like that.
And now I'm sitting here, concerned that I've upset him/pissed him off.
WHY??? Was he concerned about upsetting me? No.
How do I stop this cycle? I should be annoyed that he thought of me like that, but deep down, I do find it flattering.
Now what do I do? Wait and see if he responds to my text? Hope he apologises?
What's annoying me is that I am worried that I've upset him, that I've somehow done something wrong. That if he doesn't answer, then I will feel bad. I shouldn't feel bad, should I? I should be feeling empowered, proud of myself that I answered his inappropriate text with a strong response.
Talk some sense into me please!
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Stopping myself being a 'pleaser' - setting boundaries is something new to me.
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pinktransit · 15/05/2013 11:34
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