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I told DH to leave today. So sad and angry.

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DontMeanToBeRudeBut Sat 11-May-13 20:44:48

This morning I accidentally found out that DH is in arrears on a debt of nearly £1000 that I knew nothing about. Apparently it is possible to spend nearly a grand on two pairs of shoes and a coat hmm It's the fourth time this year that I've found out that he's been dishonest with me about debt; only one of those times was it because he came clean about it. It's happened twice before this year, once about a huge overdraft and once about secret credit cards.

Dishonesty over debt isn't the whole story but I just cannot believe that this has happened again. When he got home I asked him to explain himself, he claimed ignorance and I lost it and told him to pack his things and leave, which he did.

I wish it hadn't come to this but I don't know what else I can possibly do. I've explained over and over how the things he does make me feel so awful, we've done a marriage course, we've had intervention from family and friends, we're in the middle of counselling. And still he is being dishonest with me. I am starting to realise that I can't make him into a responsible husband and father (we have 2 DC) and he, despite all his promises, can't be bothered. He has a completely different idea to me of what is acceptable behaviour. It doesn't matter how many times we agree to rules, every time there is an 'exceptional circumstance' that makes it ok for him to break them. There is nothing that he can say to me that will make me trust him again.

I'm furious but also deeply sad and so scared of what the future will be. I'm on maternity leave but I'm going to have to go back to work for a psychopathic bully, sooner rather than later. I don't know how I can possibly afford childcare for the two DC. I just don't even know how to start sorting out this mess.

Super-long post, sorry, just had to write all that down.

alittlebitcountry Tue 21-May-13 22:49:40

Hi Dont Mean, I hope you've had a better week and feel there is some light at the end of the tunnel.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Tue 14-May-13 22:52:20

Life (mine at least!) would be infinitely easier if we couldn't fall in love with anyone we shouldn't.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Tue 14-May-13 21:27:24

That's exactly what I'm afraid of. I don't want to be looking back a way down the line wishing I had got rid now instead of putting up with being miserable for another five years and losing everything at the end of it.

I'm 25. I feel so incredibly old.

RandomMess Tue 14-May-13 21:14:45

SIL lost their family house due to Ex-BIL gambling and spending all of their money behind her back, the lengths he went to, how he managed to credit after being blacklisted etc were unbelievable.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Tue 14-May-13 21:05:39

It's true and I've been wondering all day if there's a way to do it without actually divorcing him.

An ex-colleague was married to the same guy twice (and divorced him twice). He royally screwed her credit rating and I was witness to her having a nervous breakdown as she was so stressed out from trying to convince the ratings agencies to disassociate herself from his bad credit history sad

RandomMess Tue 14-May-13 21:04:47

Geez how miserable for you sad

I too would be worried that he is secretly gambling tbh.

I wouldn't be letting him come home anytime soon, words are easy - actions much harder.

AThingInYourLife Tue 14-May-13 20:59:52

I don't know how you are going to get past the fact that he thinks it is OK to steal from you. And your children.

Or why you would want to.

Even if one day he learns to be someone else, for now you are extremely vulnerable being financially linked to a proven liar, thief and spendthrift.

I think you need to find at least a medium term way if getting him far enough away from your household that he can't destroy it.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Tue 14-May-13 20:49:44

Not that I'm seething or anything hmm

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Tue 14-May-13 20:47:08

Oh, and stupid. Bad enough to blow ridiculous amounts of money on designer rubbish but to do it on credit, when you work in credit and know that it's designed to squeeze as much money as possible out of the debtor is so stupid it's breath-taking. Stupid. Or arrogant enough to think that the usual rules about credit don't apply to him.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Tue 14-May-13 20:43:53

There's plenty wrong with me but so far I haven't become a lying, greedy, selfish, lazy spendthrift. I don't think focussing on how I need to fold the washing the instant it comes out of the dryer is going to improve things much TBH.

Lweji Tue 14-May-13 20:43:07

You can definitely change the way you relate to him.
At some point (and I think if you are not there, you are very close) you stop hoping he changes, you detach from him and definitely send him on his way.

AnyFucker Tue 14-May-13 20:13:04

Why would you change yourself ? There is nothing wrong with you confused

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Tue 14-May-13 19:49:11

New counsellor is booked for Friday. I've been looking up how to get the most out of counselling and how it works best when you go wanting to change yourself rather than your partner. I don't know if this is going to work, I am furious with him and not at all in the mood for changing!

Last night he told me that I never have been one to forget things. How can I forget things when they are repeated over and over and over again? Then he wanted a hug. I'm afraid I swore at that point.

RootinTootin Tue 14-May-13 17:25:12

You should definitely place money issues over your family. He needs to know that you should be able to control what he spends.

AnyFucker Mon 13-May-13 23:32:51

How do you fancy being this bloke's mother for the rest of his life ?

A sobering thought

and a really, really unsexy one sad

alittlebitcountry Mon 13-May-13 23:29:26

I wish I could find some detachment too. We tried and failed miserably to have a constructive talk tonight. It's so hard not to let the anger take over isn't it!

I'm still too raw to listen calmly without pulling him up on what he says, so DH got angry I interrupted him & he felt I wasn't listening.
I know I'll need to move past this at some point, but really, he lied and ran up secret debt and the first time he gives me the full picture, I'm the bad guy for interrupting? Don't see how we can fix this on our own, but we don't have the leeway to pay for counselling right now.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Mon 13-May-13 22:48:46

Don't worry, it's a recent NC and I'm not particularly attached to it!

DH has arranged counselling for himself on Wednesday and we've chosen a marriage counsellor, who we will call tomorrow to set up an appointment. Honestly though, I thought I was feeling so calm, almost detached but I was talking about appointment etc. with DH this evening and I am so angry. Unbelievably angry. I could barely speak, it was that strong. Wow. I'd been feeling a bit miserable and lonely and was wondering whether it might not be better for him to come back but after the way I felt tonight that's just not possible.

I wish I could talk this through with someone in RL but there's no one I feel comfortable with. My parents have offered their support but we've never been a touchy-feely kind of family and it would just be odd. My close friends are also his friends and I don't want them to judge him, stupid as that sounds. I don't know why I'm bothering to protect him. Finances and sex have always been a forbidden subject in our counselling sessions so far so we've been messing around talking about the washing up and not dealing with the real issues.

Anyway, off to bed before I write an essay!

alittlebitcountry Mon 13-May-13 22:12:40

Hello. I hope you've had a better day today.
I just realised I've been calling you DontMind instead of "DontMean", I wish I could blame the autocorrect but I've been generally vague and not on the ball at work as well. My apologies, flowers.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Sun 12-May-13 18:10:04

Hi all. Not a very restful night as DS had a nightmare and it felt strange not having DH in the bed. Hey ho. He's here at the moment to have tea and put DS to bed (trying to keep things normal for DS while we figure out what's going on).

He thinks he has compulsive spending disorder, which he is going to contact a counsellor about tomorrow. I've told him that even if ge dies have it, it doesn't excuse him being so selfish and leading our family down the path to financial ruin. Also doesn't cover the lack of input in daily life. We are also putting the wheels in motion for different marriage counselling tomorrow.

He's staying at his dad's house this week to give us both a bit of space. We'll review at the weekend.

MadamFolly Sun 12-May-13 13:21:30

Hope everything is going well OP.

Stay strong.

verygentlydoesit Sun 12-May-13 11:33:23

Hi dontmind, I'm sorry to hear you are going through this.

I had something similar happen many moons ago. A good friend asked if I thought my EXP could have a gambling problem, I was 100% sure that wasn't the case.

Six months later I cracked and opened his bank statements only to find huge amounts of money going out and coming in from various bookies. When the truth came out I realised that gambling addicts are highly skilled at lying to cover their tracks.

Your DH's spending may be totally unrelated to gambling, but it's maybe worth considering.


alittlebitcountry Sun 12-May-13 11:24:39

Morning DontMind I hope you've had a restful night.
I think I know what you mean, it's all I can do right now to drag myself out of the house and organise the laundry etc. Without making any momentous final split decision.

DontMeanToBeRudeBut Sat 11-May-13 22:45:48

Yup, those blasted cyclists grin

I know it is messed up, I really do. I suppose I'm at the stage where I'm more scared of a future alone than I am fed up with the status quo.

alittlebitcountry Sat 11-May-13 22:23:54

Cyclists? Damn autocorrect. I meant Fuckwits.

alittlebitcountry Sat 11-May-13 22:22:33

Thanks DontMind, I don't want to hijack your thread and I'm truly sorry to see you're going through the same thing.
Thanks for sharing your experience though - I'm not really clear enough in my own mind to talk it through with other people in real life yet if that makes sense.
I feel exactly the same about an equal partnership - I never wanted to take over all finances and control him, or be his 3rd parent.
Sigh. Why do the cyclists have to mess up what could otherwise be a great relationship?

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