I don't know if anyone will be able to suggest anything that will help, but I need to get this out of my head and I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone in rl...
DP and I are really struggling at the moment and I am starting to worry that we won't be able to get through. :(
A bit of background -
We have been together 6 years, the first few were long distance. We argued a bit during this time, mostly due to distance, and the fact that I was quite immature (DP is a few years older than me and we met when I was 20.) However, as I grew up a bit and we moved closer to each other, the fighting stopped. (Obviously we still had 'normal' disagreements, but we were not arguing IYSWIM?)
Over the past couple of years our sex life has massively dwindled, and we now haven't had sex since before Christmas. DP has been diagnosed as severely depressed, and then we lost FIL recently which has added a lot to DP's depression, and has affected me also. The depression has been the main cause of our sex life dwindling, alongside a medical condition which has affected DPs confidence (but not ability to DTD)
Recently we have been arguing a lot, over stupid little things like housework, but these arguments have blown up out off all proportion and ended in shouting, tears and hurtful things being said on both sides.
I am currently the main wage earner as DP is out of work due to his mental health problems. Whilst this doesn't bother me per say (he supported me through uni and when I was looking for a job when we first moved in together) it is a strain as I can only just afford it. My job involves long hours and prep time at home, and as I am new to the job, I am finding it a struggle and very tiring. I am not doing as much around the house as I maybe should, which DP is finding hard to deal with as he feels housework is all he ever does.
Added to this, we recently moved to a new area and don't know anyone. I am trying to get out and meet people and have started a few hobbies (when I have the time and energy, which isn't all the time) but being depressed, DP doesn't feel up to it. But then he feels even worse because he doesn't have any friends here.
I don't even know why I'm posting this... Everything just feels so difficult at the moment, and I can't see it getting better. DP is on anti-depressants and is seeing a councillor for CBT but it doesn't seem to be having an impact yet. I feel constantly guilty for not being able to help him and for getting frustrated with issues such as the lack of sex.
I don't know what I/we can do to try and fix this? At the moment I feel like we are housemates who don't get on particularly well rather than partners :(
This is so garbled :( sorry. :(
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KateBeckett · 28/04/2013 10:48
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