Affair has come to an end, my instigation - I have hurt OM who is is upset and angry. I didn't really want to end it and am still very much in love with OM but I was struggling with my double life and fear of discovery.
At first I felt relief.....but as the minutes turned into hours and now days, I have begun to feel worse and worse. I miss OM more than I have missed anyone in my life. I feel immense grief and deep sorrow. I feel as if the bottom has dropped out of my life. My whole life feels completely empty and I cannot comprehend why I acted as I did. I feel as if my whole self is weeping inside and I have this terrible fear that I've let 'the one' get away and I will never feel loved like that again. The though of never being close or intimate with him again makes me feel wretched but the loss of the emotional side of the affair is what's really hurting most right now.
Yes, I know I have messed up things this year. I am human and I screwed up my life.
Can someone remind me how to get over a relationship and give me some words of wisdom to stay strong and get through this. Some good healthy flaming about having and affair and why it's wrong would probably be a good start!
Thanks. I just need a little hand holding as I'm struggling.
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Getting over OM when you still love OM?
PlaistowQueen · 22/04/2013 16:08
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