I was going to say 'hate', but that's a very strong word and I'm not quite there yet but could be.
I apologise if I end up rambling but I'm using this as an opportunity to have a bit of a verbal vomit.
I'm lazy, selfish, angry, impatient. I judge people and then end up doing the same thing myself which makes me a huge hypocrite. I'm a terrible mother; I avoid playing with DD when she really wants me to, I get cross with her far too easily. I put across a completely false version of myself to fit in/make people like me. I like the version other people see (mostly) but then I get home and everything goes back to crap and negative and the 'real' me comes back out again
I find it almost impossible to motivate myself. My house is in a constant state of chaos and dust which I hate, but I also hate cleaning.
I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I just wish I were different.
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BigGiantCowWithAKnockKnockTail · 13/04/2013 09:03
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