While my mom is lovely in many ways i do have some niggling thoughts... Perhaps i have been reading too much if Stately Homes threads?...
This weekend i was talking to her on skype. She lives in my homecountry while im in uk. As we started chatting my partner came back home having bought lots of things for our new kitchen. I have to say our relationship is a bit rocky and this weekend we were areguing a bit. I made a comment to him about the stuff he bought and he lost his temper. Started really properly yelling at me, then at our 3.5 year old son. All while i was still on slype so my mom could hear it. I nicely said, mom, lets finish the conversation we speak at other time. She was sat there though not ending it just quiet. Then after more yelling from (D)P i snapped a bit- mom, lets just end it for now ok?! She hang up on me.
An hour later she texted me, it said- ' sorry i hung up, it is just too hard for me to witness that. And the fact i cannot help in anyway makes me feel even worse for me'.
Now my gripe here is that she makes ir sound like SHE is the suffering party.
Our backstory is that i had an eating disorder from when i was 15 and i felt so distressed because of how that fact made HER feel. I always felt like im contributing to her poor health, almost like killing her. I left homecountry when i was 22, still ill and stayed in a foreign country (not uk) doing shit jobs, one of the reasons for that was i wanted to be far away so that she doesnt know im still ill and wouldnt feel the immense guilt. I was more worried about making her upset than about how ill i was.
Whenever she comes over here now and stays with us it becomes tense after 3-4 days or so. Mostly because me and partner argue regularly and when she witnesses it she herself goes into meltdown so i end up having to deal with the original argument plus managing her reactions! Im sure it's not nice to stay in a house with family arguing but i just wish she would be supportive/wise instead of going into a meltdown...
When we were teens/preteens me and my sister were her confidantes about how unhappy she was with dad and heard perhaps too much and stuff we shouldnt have heard.
I cant help but wonder (while feeling very guilty even about thinking like that) if she is a bit too self centered. She could have texted to say that she is sorry she had to witness an argument and that she hopes we will work it out in the end. Instead the text is all about how SHE is suffering because she heard us arguing.
Am i a cow of a daughter?...
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TrippleBerryFairy · 07/04/2013 21:58
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