Split up with DP almost 3 months ago, it was horrendous; emotionally, physically. He sadly was an abuser in many guises.
I thought I was doing so well. Eventually I began no contact and it's killed me, I missed him so much in the beginning. Although now it's less and less.. Am just so sorry that he could do this after the love I thought we had, and obviously the love I had for him.
My point is am just not the same person. Am moody, snappy, teary and utterly frustrated. My life had inevitably turned upside down; I am now back at parents doing a 4 hour daily commute and am tired. Am so tired.
A lovely man wants to tame me out tomorrow and I just don't know that I can . I feel guilty , why do I feel guilty? Why can't I have my life back.
I don't know what in particular triggered this feeling tonight, I just don't feel I can ever be myself these days.
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Chaoscarriesonagain · 08/03/2013 23:55
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