Just realised Im actually happy. Its been nearly nine months since xh walked out of the blue and shattered my world and a month since i divorced him for adultery.
My 1 year old dd started waking properly today and did the fantastic piggy snort she does in delight. My eldest dd started making the sound and we all couldn't stop laughing. And then it hit me Im happy the warm happiness you get sometimes for the first time in years. Yes my xh is an arse lets the girls down and tries to upset me. But do you know what i don't care. I will have rubbish days but like today i will have true happiness too.him leaving was the hardest and upsetting thing to ever happen to me, but the best thing ever to happen to me also.
So if your struggling or having and awful time have hope as i never ever thought i would be happy again but guess what i am
Thanks i hope it continues too. I just look back to what i was and how far I've gone. Just wish i had known in the dark days that i would be happy one day. I know there is a few more horrible days to come such as when ow meets my girls. But i will be ok i have my girls and we've moulded into a fantastic little family.