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Do your DH's say this about you?(63 Posts)
I'm new here, but have been lurking for some time. Love the support and honest advice. Looking for some myself.
So...DH got an email about five years ago from an ex gf. It was very basic hello/hi stuff. He replied, including that he was married. After that there were a couple of other exchanges and nothing since. DH was open and honest about all of them. There was nothing in the emails to suggest anything. Though it seemed to me like the ex gf was a bit lonely. I also found it odd that her first email didn't mention that she was married, though she did talk about her new job. She only mentioned marriage when DH wrote saying he was married.
Just yesterday, the ex gf writes again. DH showed me the email immediately after he saw it. Being the nosey parker that I am, I scrolled down to see the previous email exchanges. I realised that the initial reply that DH had written (those five years ago) had been returned undelivered and he had written another email. This particular email I had not seen, until yesterday. It was very basic but the thing that bothered me was this "I am now married, which keeps me busy". He then went on to talk about work etc etc. Not a long email.
"I am married now, which keeps me busy" - if you saw this coming from your DH, what would you think? I was and still am very upset and hurt. I was not looking for appraise but a simple ' I am happily married' or even ' I am now married' would do. I always go on and on when I describe DH to someone - I'm married to a wonderful man, blah blah blah. I don't expect DH to do the same but to say marriage keeps him busy is a bit hurtful. Work and children may keep someone busy but to say a marriage keeps one busy??
DH thinks I am over reacting to a 'flippant' comment. That I just need a reason to argue.
By way off background, I got married to DH about 8 years ago and moved to the UK. I am not from the UK. DH is English. I eventually settled down, got a good job, made some friends etc. DH then got a very job in a third country and we moved here. We have been here for about 4 1/2 years. I had to restart all over again. We have a good life here, though it's not an easy country to live in. It is lonely at times and my whole life revolves around my two DCs. We do not go out in the evenings, we don't really meet friends, unless I force DH to belong. We do not entertain. This place is a very country club lifestyle type of place and we do not do any of it. I don't change out of my pajamas all weekend as I know we are not going anywhere. DH has made it clear that he doesn't really want to go out. Sometimes we do things but not often. The only real outings are birthday parties, nursery related events. When dads are invited, DH always comes along. Our marriage is all about the children, I feel. I feel DH does not take my feelings into consideration ( I never wanted to move here by the way) nor do I feel desired or appreciated.
I feel this comment is exactly what DH feels of me - a bit of a burden, a nagging, cranky wife he has to deal with at the end of the day, someone who has woren him out with all the arguing.
Advice and perspective much appreciated. Have I blown this whole thing out of proportion? Sorry for the long post!
Have you told your husband about how you feels he views you? If so, what did he say? If from your perspective he doesn't support you as much as you'd like and views you as a nag then you should really talk about that as some point. It's no good for your self-esteem for you to feel this way, whether he actually views you in the way you describe or not. It does sound like this is part of a wider issue: that he offers an ex he doesn't even see his support and positivity while you, his wife, don't get that.
Agree with numberlock... do something for you, speak to your contact about the job and go for it. It would definitely beat hanging about in your pj's! Yes, it's important that the dc are you everything, but you sound like you need someone to appreciate you- and you may get that satisfaction from a job.
I agree that the 'keeping busy' was etting her know that he didnt have spare time to meet up any time.
And I aso think that you should consider the job. Its time to think about you now - you have done 2 job related moves for his benefit, and now you are feeling lost and abandoned. I think you feel that the ex is being appreciated for doing well in her work, and it has highighted how you are stuck in a place you dont reay like and regarded, in your own mind, as nothing.
Working will fill your days. You will meet people with similar interests and maybe increase your circle of friends which your DH can be invoved with too. It will give you some more money to be able to do more stuff as a family or pay for babysitters to do stuff for yourself or as a couple. It will raise your self esteem too.
I agree with the others, tummy. That remark in itself is meaningless. He doesn't seem to have been sinking tons of emotional effort into an ongoing relationship with the ex, so it doesn't look like she's your problem.
You have got a problem, though. It is terrible to feel marginalised in your own marriage. No wonder you feel sad and insecure. Why was he so dismissive about your invitation to apply for the job, do you think? Has he stopped noticing you are a person, kind of thing? Do you ever get the feeling he likes you being a bit shut away from the world?
I hope you will get back in touch with that person about the job. Go on, do it!
Thank you everyone for taking the time to post. I feel a bit of a fool for over reacting. I wonder if it is cultural as well. I come from a conservative culture where contact with an ex is just viewed differently.
I can not work as I would have to leave the baby with a nanny and DH does not want a nanny to look after the children. I am involved in many things here- charity work, book group. But everything I do, I take the children along, which is not always easy. Not to mention that no one else brings their children as they all have nannies! I think I have recognised that his approval means a lot to me. I need to work on moving away from that.
The comment was a throw away one and not a big deal. How you're feeling about your relationship and life is a big deal.
A 'DH that does not want a nanny' is just a DH that prefers to crush your ambition, squander your intelligence and keep you trapped at home. It's 2013 not 1953... many women work and children spend time with childminders etc. Take the job, book the childcare, then present him with a fait accompli. You don't need his permission...
You sound isolated and unhappy. Not changing out of your PJs all weekend because you know you won't be going anywhere doesn't sound like a good way to be living. You need to think about what you want and need and have a serious talk with your DH. You've gone from a job and friends to a life that's just you and the DC and (from the sounds of it) a very anti social husband.
It really doesn't matter if he doesn't want the DC looked after by a nanny. You need some adult interaction.
He thinks you should be the nanny! Well, he might have to readjust his ideas
Are you okay talking to him about big stuff like this? Does he listen?
Narked and Cogito, I do need to assert myself a bit more. I only assert myself when I am arguing and what feels like child like tantrums but at the end of the day, I always seem to do what he wants. He decided he doesn't want to go out, nor socialise. So that is how it is. Of course, at times we do or are forced to.
The post that said, if we live in the Middle East. I wish! That is a walk in the park in comparison. We live in Cameroon, Africa!
Garlicblocks, I can talk to him about big things. I always do. I talk a bit too much. Too much talk and no real concrete steps to change things.
I agree entirely with cogito, if he doesn't like that solution you can tell him that if he doesn't want to use childcare then he can stay at home. There's no law that states the stay at home parent has to be female!
I'll bet that the more involved you get with things outside of the home - be it work, socialising or even just getting a few hours to yourself to go to the gym and have a coffee - the more you'll find yourself being assertive. Why not try getting a day a week to yourself and go from there.
I can't believe you stay in your pyjamas all weekend. What about your poor children? That is not a healthy way for them to spend the weekend. It is a sign that all is not well in your marriage if family life is like this. I agree with most other posters though that there is nothing wrong with your husband's comment.
Ok, tummy, how about you go and talk to your contact about the job, check out your childcare options and then have the talk? I guess it might feel a bit wrong way around - but, well, he seems quite set in his ways. If there's going to be a row about you working anyway, you may as well have the job already sewn up. Then you've got something to fight for ...
In pajamas all weekend still allows us to play in the big garden outside our house with lots of things set up for them, the toddler has swimming classes (pool at home), the baby is just happy being where I am, pjs or not!
Thank you everyone for posting. Very much appreciated. I have said sorry to DH re: over reacting. He also said sorry for saying something that hurt me. Small peck on the lips (doesn't happen often but that is for another thread!)
Now to tackle the bigger issues. To be honest, I have got a lot more assertive in the last 8 years than I have ever been before. But I need to be a bit more assertive, a bit more thick skinned.
"I can not work as I would have to leave the baby with a nanny and DH does not want a nanny to look after the children."
TAKE THE JOB
He is not you boss, he doesn't get to stop you working.
If he doesn't want professional childcare for his children, he can quit his job and look after them himself.
Seriously - start living your life.
Oh for goodness.. It is not for him to say he doesn't want a nanny ! Everyone around you has nannies . I bet there are wonderful nannies out there .
You will feel much happier with a job and independence that is clear. Do it. If he doesn't want a nanny he can stay home.
well I don't think he meant anything by his comment
but he does sound like a boring old sod
If a friend made that comment to me, I would assume she and her husband were at it like rabbits! Either way, he was definitely telling her to back off in the nicest possible way.
I am if you are at it like rabbits. The only thing keeping us that busy at the moment are the 2 small dcs!
I never thought about accepting the job. You ladies have actually made me think about it. It an unstated agreement that DH works and I stay at home. Even in the UK, my job dare not hinder DH's in any way. Okay, he earned way, way more but I still found it a bit unfair. I never said anything then but I also didn't fully recognise it. I didn't have the wisdom of mumsnet
I will think a bit more about this job. Though I'm a coward. And I don't want to rock the boat at home. I never thought I would have issues like this with an English man! These problems only seemed possible from the culture I come from. Really makes me think of how progressive my father and mother are. They were forward thinking in a backward culture. Hmm, lots to think about. Thank you everyone!
"I never thought I would have issues like this with an English man! These problems only seemed possible from the culture I come from."
I suspect he never thought he'd have the problem of an assertive wife who wanted to work when he chose to marry someone from your culture.
Do not let him run your life.
You are a person too, and every bit as important as he is.
Unless he is about to become pope, I can't think of a job that is more important than something that could save your sanity. He doesn't want a nanny? Tough. I'm sure he wants a happy and healthy wife. A nanny goes part way there.
One step at a time, OP.
For now just ring up about the job and get as much information as you need eg salary, working hours, annual leave, flexibility etc. Then you can take the next step based on that information.
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