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Basically, today I'm in a positive mood so can say I have the most wonderful boyfriend. He takes me out at least once a week, texts me every day without fail, spends half the week at my house and mucks in with chores putting the bin out, washing up, tidying up after my kids etc. He treats me like a princess - yesterday he came around after work, saw the state of me (full of cold) and went straight back out into -2 temperatures to get me medicine. He's kind, affectionate, funny, always there when I need him. He'll do anything for me. He's even paying for me and my kids to go on holiday with him because he knows I can't afford it by myself. He's taking me to France this weekend and is spending Christmas with me. I really, genuinely could not ask for a better bloke.
So why then, as soon as he is gone do I worry myself sick that he's using me, hates me, is going out of his way to hurt me etc?? yesterday I wound myself up that much that by the time teatime arrived I'd decided he was going to break up with me when he arrived, the France trip was off, I'd be spending Christmas alone and I'd be spending the next few weeks getting over him. WTF??? he arrived, asked what was wrong as my eyes were sad, I said nothing. He hugged me, made me a cuppa, took me to the cinema and then we came home and watched TV snuggled on the sofa. I had no reason AT ALL to justify my earlier paranoia that my relationship would be over within hours. I don't know what's wrong with me.
Sometimes I take it out on him too, ignore him or cancel on him to try and make him think I'm not bothered about him. I'm terrified I will drive him away but I don't know why I do it
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My anxiety is ruining my relationship
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MeltingSnowWoman · 14/12/2012 11:53
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