Someone please tell me how am I supposed to do this? I find it difficult, he does things all the time, he is at home all day and I can not get a moments peace. We sleep seperately, so that is the only respite I get from him. But he is here all day long, and I find it difficult, now that I have been reading Lundy, to not get upset. I want to detach, so that I no longer care about all his shite, but don't know how to do it. Some tips pleeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaase....<begandgrovel>
I am feeling so incapable, I guess I am rubbish. He is always here making constant snidey remarks, always commenting on everything I have done. I don't know how he keeps it up. I have tried to ignore him and then he follows me around to have a go at me. I get upset and tell him it is unacceptable, he then starts saying 'oh here you go again, making little issues into big issues" I hate him. He won't leave because he expects me to leave the house, he said as much yesterday. I think I am going to go mad if I have to carry on. I need to make him leave the house, I have an autistic son, so he knows I can't just up and leave.
Apparently we can't move forward unless I stop fussing over little details all the time. Apparently he stopped flirting and is changing, he stopped 2 months ago, what a guy eh? (We have been married 12 years, and every time I confronted him he had always stopped a few months ago, maybe 2 months ago.........urrrrrrrgggggghhh I am such an idiot.) Now I should stop going on about it, because it is not fair on him . Also, he may have called me names and made insulting jokes at my expense but I don't speak to him nicely, so that is just as bad in his mad sad world Apparently I spend all the money (winter stuff for the kids) and he can't even buy himself a pair of headphones I should also make more of an effort in the bedroom, lets ignore the fact that I don't want to be near him because the last time we DTD, he "accidentally" hurt me [twunt] Someone come and drag him out by the gonads, out out out out out!
It is difficult to detach when he's there all the time and knows how to push your buttons. Do you have anyone irl who knows what's really going on? I felt a lot stronger once I had the support of my parents.
Sorry not to be much help, but sending supportive thoughts.
Today he is acting as if nothing has happened again. I am trying to remain strong and not get pulled back again. He is being all nice, jokey and smiley. He even cleaned up after dinner. I just think it takes a bit more than cleaning up after dinner to win me back. But if he suspects that it isn't working he might become angry again. Detach detach detach. I shouldn't have to do this, it isn't fair. At least he has gone out tonight to his parents', hopefully he might stay there because his father is ill, not that I think it is nice that his father is ill, but well, ykwim