Feeling down

[totallymessedupp]

I want to send this to my friend. We have both had depression issues and have always been able to talk openly with each other without judgement etc. The problem is she is 36wks pregnant with dc2 and has been having a rough time this time round. So i don't want to burden her. If its ok i'll just post it here, i don't need a reply, just need to put it somewhere.

No, actually no I'm not ok. I desperately want to harm myself. I've been fighting the feeling since dc2 was born. I just need a release from the god awful weight of my own thoughts. I know some of these thoughts are exagerated, some untrue but some are true. Think. i need to get some help to find a bit of positivity in my life because right now I can't find amything positive about me. So i'm headin to the docs this week to get some ads. I think its time as I'm passing the tears stage and entering the numb stage. Thats always been dangerous for me.

I won't send it to her because she'll worry and be constantly wanting me to talk etc. Please don't worry about me doing anything silly, I've got my dc to look after. Just needed to share my feelings. I won't be back on today as its time for bed. Sorry for spelling etc, am on phone.

thanks

[Teabagtights]

Hey there didn't want this to go unanswered. Go to the docs. Anti ds as life savers.

When it gets too much put an elastic band round your wrist and ping it. Leave it there all the time and when you feel like hurting yourself because the pain inside is so bad use the band.

[pear003]

I'm thinking of you, xx

[izzyizin]

Ping that band... and relieve some of the weight of those thoughts by getting them out of your head and posting them here where you can be helped to make sense of the inevitable nonsense we accumulate as we make our way through life.