Long time lurker here. Sorry if this is a bit jumbled, but I really don't know what to do.
If you recognise me from RL, then...Hello, I guess?
Been with DH for 6 years, 2 DC, 1&3yrs.
I have depression and anxiety and am on ADs for this, was working well, not so much now.
Me and DH argue like cats and dogs. He thinks I am lazy, untidy and do not treat our home with respect. Our home is not spotless, but not a hovel or a 'crack den' like he says it is. DH works very long hours and often comes home exhausted extremely late, whereupon he gets angry about the fact that our kitchen is a bit cluttered, he claims he cannot use it in that state so won't make himself anything to eat.
When I try to talk to him about things seriously, he won't answer me. It is infuriating.
I am a SAHM, with absolutely no financial independence. I have about £4 left of my overdraft, with no chance of extending it.
I'm sure I am no picnic to live with either. My MH problems are at crisis point at the moment, and if I wasn't too scared to take an overdose (in case it doesn't work) then I would.
I want to leave, without the DC. He is calmer and more practical than I am, he has savings, has ambitions and can drive. I have nothing, including no where to live with them both. He would remain in the home with them, I would leave.
Today he said maybe we should think about seperating, I called his bluff and walked out and went to see a friend. I am now back at our home, he is at work, DCs at his family's.
He won't go to counselling, he won't tell me whether he wants to work on our marriage or divorce, he won't discuss is with any finality.
I, quite frankly, wish I was dead.
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RapunzelLetDownYourHair · 05/11/2012 17:05
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