Abuse as a child

[newbeteacher]

I have never spoken about this to anyone but feel safe doing it on here.

I think I was sexually assaulted when I was about 3 or 4 but I can only remember bits. It has been playing on my mind for years and I have recently got out of an emotionally abusive relationship - which seems to be stirring a lot up again.

All I remember is being with my aunt, a beach, a tent and a man touching me inappropriately. Am I mad or did this really happen? I have asked my parents if they can remember where I was with my aunt at the time but neither can recollect.

Thoughts please would be appreciated xx

[RobynRidingHood]

Is your aunt still alive?

A conversation along the lines of "do you remember when you took me to the beach? where was that? who came with us?"

a man touching me inappropriately. Am I mad or did this really happen - helping you change a bathing costume? drying you? or properly touching you whilst no one else was watching?

[chipsandmushypeas]

It sounds quite specific to be made up. Sorry you've had this on your mind op, it's horrible. There is a great thread for people who were abused as children, I'm sure they could give you great advice x

[CailinDana]

Of course it's just about impossible to say for sure whether it happened or not.

But it is very common for abuse to surface in this way in adulthood - through hazy memories. What you might find is that memories start hitting you a bit harder or that you start getting flashbacks.

How are you feeling about it?

[chipsandmushypeas]

Maybe hypnotherapy could help?

[newbeteacher]

Thanks for your posts Robyn the latter one - touching in appropriately when no one else was around. Yes my aunt is still alive.

I will take on all your advice x