My relationship with my mother has been marred, on my side, by my childhood. She had a tough time, which I understand, but took it out on me (and my brother), which has left me with some problems in adult life. I have sought out counselling before to help with these issues and it has worked. Then I had my son and a whole new host of issues came up. Back in Feb (he was 4 months old) I started having flashbacks to when my mother rubbed my brother's dirty (poo) nappy on his face (because she was fed up of him poo-ing in his nappy - he was about 2, not that that really makes a difference!) and things like how she used to boast about putting my face under a tap on a train once to get me to stop crying when I was 18 months - apparently it worked really well. She went beserk at me once when I was 5, no idea why and I don't actually remember it. What I remember is just her laughing at the bruises a few days later when helping me to the loo. There were quite a lot more physical things too.
On Skype (luckily, she doesn't live near), she says things like, "Your DS is SO like you when you were younger". It kills me inside, because I couldn't ever, ever imagine doing any of the things to him that she did to my brother or I. I used to be able to tolerate her (well, for short periods), but now I just want to cut contact. I know that I won't, but I'm just wondering if this sounds familiar to anybody else and if so, what you have done. I am having counselling again, but just looking for some other ideas on how to deal with this.
Also, does what she did sound like abuse? Just those incidents? I kind of think it it, but it's so close to home, I'm not sure if I'm being overly sensitive.
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cantreachmytoes · 11/10/2012 16:14
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