Some people will know the back story. I'll fill you in quickly;
Stbxh Feveloped adding problem when I was 36 weeks pg. the usual, love you but not in love with you. Expected ow. He denied, It wa all horiffic, I had just moved to a city where I know noone and was very alone. I had ds, he still wasn't coming home, still funding hotel bills, still spendin thousands (no exaggerating) on booze. I filled for divorce and have been living with my parents since ds was a week old, he's 17 weeks and wonderful.
So, I'm about a week away from moving into my own house 3 hours away from my parents but in my home town. Stbxh and I have been horiffic, it's gone from us trying to be friends, to him admitting seeing someone else, lying to me, finding her stuff in our family hone, stopping seeing our son (he want to see him in a contact centre) and only contacting me via email. This time last year we were so happy, I cant even tell you. It's been so quick.
I'm finding it hard, the thought of leaving my parents and the "end" of it all I guess. Stbxh moves out of our family home tomorrow, I don't know where he's going to.
I feel like I've failed, in returning to my home town a divorced single mother on benifits, when everyone else is getting married and buying property and having children (in 26, got married at 21) I have realised in going to be very lonley. When ds goes to bed at 7. What am I supposed to do? Im struggling toget over how he could do this to us. I don't miss him, I have no respect for him and im ok, in just in shock and miss what I thought my life was. It was all so sure, we secure and it's gone.
How will I meet a new partner? How will I ever move on. I feel like everyone's got their lives and im a spare part. Im terrified. I feel worse now than the day I left. The dramas over, it's the realisation this is my life
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2wwmadness · 03/09/2012 10:50
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