We're in the run up to the first anniversaries post DH's affair. I'm hoping it'll be like the anniversaries of bereavement ie the dread of them was worse than the anniversaries themselves.
The bits I'm most uncomfortable with are the anniversary of the day he left to work in the overseas client office (having not told me about the woman who asked him for sex the previous time he went), the day he decided he was going to chat someone from that office up for a shag (succeeded) and his birthday, which happened while he was there so also was spent with her. Strangely, I'm not so bothered about the anniversary of when he told me about the affair.
Our couples therapist was keen to point out that we can't change a single second of the past, only the way we respond to it. I think I'm afraid that I was so 'together' at the time that it'll bite me this time around. I didn't suppress stuff at the time but I do wonder if there's something brewing. FWIW I didn't properly grieve my parents when they died as there were other people that I felt I had to be 'strong' for.
I have cried and raged when I've needed to and I mostly feel ok now but I am so not looking forward to these next 6 weeks.
BTW - all 'leave the bastard' suggestions will be duly ignored.
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Post affair - any ideas about coping with 'the anniversaries'?
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RightFedUp · 19/06/2012 18:22
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