Sorry if this sounds a bit self indulgent. I just need to vent somewhere and MN has been great for helping me in the past.
Marriage to DH seems like it is going down the pan, counselling hasn't helped, I'm just frustrated with him and our endless arguments over silly trivial things that then end up major things. Now we have big blow ups in front of the children which I think is becoming damaging.
I've posted about DD before and think our arguing is affecting her, at 5yo, she has been causing me real stress with her fibbing and taking other children's stuff from school, I caught her today with more taken things and despite me asking her, she flat out lied, so she has had tv and priveleges taken away. She always seems naughty and I feel I am constantly shouting at her.
My DS who is nearly 2 and 1/2 is turning into the child that I can only describe as like those kids on Supernanny. Tonight after 2 and 1/2 hours of tantrums, pooey nappies, crying and refusing to go to sleep he finally exhausted himself onto me, and fell asleep, I know at midnight though he will awake and once again scream till he is carried into our bed till morning. I should also point out DD is hell to get to sleep too, she too nodded off at the same time, thankfully sleeps.
I've also fallen out with my mother, we already have a fractious relationship but she was supposed to come round and help me tonight but at the last minute cancelled saying she was tired. She seems to know when I feel crap as I can always rely on her to make me feel worse when I need her at difficult times.
I'm also feeling I've lost all my friendships. My life revolves around the children and their never ending classes and playdates. I have no girlfriends I can have a night out with, the mum friends I do talk to are quite shy and don't tend to socialise outside kids and family. I've tried getting out and meeting people but all comes to nothing, counsellor suggested but no lasting frendships where I can have a banter and confide in my crap days.
I just feel tired, tearful and just want to escape it all. So totally sad and fed up with everything.
There it is all down here, if you read and tell me to pull myself together, I've tried, the glass is half empty for me currently. Everything feels pointless.
Sorry for rambling.
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Fed up with my life - I just want to leave it all behind
Summerbum · 04/06/2012 22:57
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