I've told him to go away for the weekend so we can have a break from him and he from us.
He's been depressed for around 2 years now - on ad's from GP nearly 1 year. He spent most of 2011 on sick leave. Back in work part time, again, for now.
His personality has changed beyond recognition. How long do I live with this man that I would never have married? He is being awful to the DC and I just can't let it go on, and on.
We have a stressful home life: DC1 (4) has autism, DC2 (1) has medical issues/poor sleeper/very active and lively. I work PT - am main wage earner, main child carer, household manager, and now his carer too.
My wonderful kids are not having the home life I want for them - he is impatient, intolerant, goes around banging doors and generally stropping, snaps at the kids. DC1 has started to say 'I don't love you Daddy, just Mummy' and refuses to let DH do anything for him, it has to be me.
Last night was dreadful - baby wouldn't go to sleep for DH (I was putting DC1 to bed) so he flings open bedroom door, stomps downstairs with baby, into the blazing lights of our kitchen and was banging cupboard doors shouting 'what then?apple?rice cake?' at my confused baby Later in the evening DC1 woke up, he has a heavy cold and is feeling grotty - crying for 'mummy, not you daddy' and for one hour I could hear dh going in, being snappy, stamping downstairs, slamming doors, coming back - I was bf'ing baby who had been woken by this bloody circus.
This morning, more of he same before he went to work. I said 'will you ring that counsellor today?' (he has been given a number for a counsellor that work will pay for him to see - he's had it since May last year and hasn't had time to phone her ) I resolved that if he didn't call her today - I would ask him to clear off for a bit. He didn't call her (says he did but couldn't get through, which I don't believe), so I've asked him to go away for the weekend.
How the fuck I'll manage both kids through the night, I don't know. They both co-sleep but DC1 with DH, and baby with me. DC1 has autism and suggesting he just gets in my bed when he wakes is going to be a big deal. But still, easier than walking on eggshells all the time waiting for DH to fly off the handle. Keeping the kids out if his way. Trying not to say the wrong thing. It's draining. I know he's ill. I know he can't help it. But this isn't the home life I want and it's been 2 years........how long do I put up with this ?
Sorry it's all a bit incoherent/brain-dumpy. Just trying to get my head around it all. We've been together since we were teenagers 16 years ago. I don't want this to end, he is such a wonderful man when he's well. But this other personality is the only daddy dc2 has known. My kids are too important to be treated like this while we wait for the real DH to magically reappear.
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DH depressed, I've had enough
HeatherMoor · 19/01/2012 21:40
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