I just need to tell this to someone

[CherryFromBury]

I have never talked about this before and not sure there is anything to really talk about. I may be over reacting. Its just been niggling away at me for years.

When I was about 16 I met and got involved with a man who was in his thirties. We use to drink together and I was also sleeping with him. I thought I loved him. I certainly trusted him.

One evening we were drinking as usual. I don't really remember anything about that night though. I must have drunk too much and passed out early on, it was unusual for me to get that drunk, I woke the following morning in bf's bed, half undressed, and I'd soiled myself (blush) quite badly.

Can't say anything else now, feel sick thinking about it, just want to get others initial opinions.

[rachel700]

obvious response is that he spiked your drink and had anal sex wthout your knowledge.

Or could you have been really drunk rather than have drink spiked?

Horrible memory for you, either way. Is it a long time ago?

[SHRIIIEEEKPoolingBearBlood]

What are you asking? Do you think your drink was spiked? Do you think he assaulted you? Or are you just embarrassed that you got so drunk? If that's it, well it;s not good but most people have a story they cringe when they remember - I'll tell you mine if it'l help.

[hipsdontlie]

Not quite sure what you are asking here?

Are you worried you may have had anal sex with/without your consent?

[CherryFromBury]

Worried that he'd had anal sex with me. I was sore but it just didn't register in my head at the time. It happened a 2nd time too.

Have to leave this for a bit and come back later.

[SHRIIIEEEKPoolingBearBlood]

Oh god . x

[hipsdontlie]

Maybe you should get some RL counselling if it is still traumatic for you.