Have name changed for obvious reasons. Me and husband have been together 22 years, two teenage sons, and are mostly very happy. We have one thing that has been an issue for a few years now, about 15 years into our marriage DH told me that he has always had a very powerful fantasy about seeing me with another man, being f by another man. Once he had confessed this fantasy it really took root big time, it really powers his sex drive and always has apparently. Long story short some time after this confession we experimented with the swinging world, and we indulged this fantasy quite a few times, had some really erotic threesomes, and met some couples, he enjoyed this hugely, I enjoyed some of the experiences very much as well,not all of them, but some, but, it wasn't something that came naturally to me as such, and I used to get very nervous before "a meet" but enjoyed it once things started flowing etc. Lately our circumstances have changed quite a lot, back then we had more free time, now with the recession we are having to work bloody hard just to stand still. DH would still like to pursue the fantasy but my feelings have changed of late and my heart just isn't in it anymore. The problem is when it comes to our sex life this fantasy is an obsession, what also doesn't help is that he is diabetic and sometimes struggles to maintain an erection so using this fantasy in the bedroom helps (as well as ocaisional use of viagra prescribed by doctor), the problem is he doesn't seem to be able to have sex with me without having to use this fantasy all the time, sometimes I find myself avoiding sex because I just don't want to go there, I want to have sex WITHOUT having to use the fantasy of me f another man or behaving like a slut with another man in front of him. It's been an issue for some time now and sometimes I wish he had never ever confessed the fantasy to start with. I have suggested relationship counselling or sex therapy but he won't go there. He knows it's an issue and says he can't help how he is. Is this some kind of sex addiction?
In all other areas of our life he is great, a lovley husband, great Dad and we both work extremely hard to keep our business going. Any advise?
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cleaningtheoven · 08/10/2011 10:31
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