hi all Ive been with dp 11 years.im 30.1dc together,live together etc. Things arent great atm ,we get on each others nerves, argue over trivial things ,he has a temper will slam doors, throw things,although he has never hit me he did put his hands around my neck during the heat of an arguement. We dont have much sex ,hed rather watch tv manage it once/twice a week and when we do its not great,its ok but not wonderful iyswim. Really doubting whether i can carry on much longer in this relationship ,dp brought a male work collegue home the other week and tbh i cant stop thinking about him..hes separated and is well...nice . well mannered polite sensitive etc i guess all the things i want dp to be and he never will be. I just wanted to get that out ,thanks for reading
Well, frankly your 'd'p sounds like an incredibly nasty guy.
Why did you stay when he put his hands around your throat? An ex once did that to me and I was gone like a shot. We'd only bought a house 6 months earlier but my life is more precious to me than sticking around to wait for another outburst.
You both sound incredibly unhappy. Is this what you want for the rest of your life? Would he be open to couples counselling? If not, I'd be getting the hell out of there. You are still young, don't resign yourself to this set-up.
I am not surprised you fancied another man that appeared to be the direct opposite of your husband.
Only you can decide what to do, but in your shoes, I'd be breaking up with him. You are so young and you deserve so much better than what he is offering you.
AF i was going to report him to the police for that,but he nastily said if i did social services would be all over me because we have a dc ,i wasnt sure whether they would have taken me seriously as miraculously he hadnt marked me. bluebelle ive stayed as i wanted things to work and also dc is SEN and was quite difficult when she was younger ,she idolises him bless her. Also i have no where to go ,family have told me to stay put, that they cant have me back home
AF ,if he touches me again i wont hesitate to report him next time,that was 2 years ago and hasnt since but you never know do you?
izzy,our house is H/A owned ,my name is not on tenancy ,dont think im eligable for council property as im making my self intentionally homeless if i leave. Would be eligable for HB for private rental but would have to find rent/deps first ,have asked him to leave in the past he refused point blank saying its "his" house.
Having a really bad night. Cant stand dp any longer hes irratating me to hell ,even the sound of his laugh is making me want to punch him. Cant stop thinking about his friend either ,keep thinking does he like me too? likelihood of that being nil as his x wife has depression and he is still supporting her,and of course he is a loyal friend. Going to look for somewhere to live on monday
You wouldn't be intentionally homeless, you'd be fleeing the risk of violence so you would be eligible for housing. Start keeping a diary (online may be safest) and record incidents when he is behaving aggressively. And definitely call Women's Aid.
Don't be daft OP! (meant nicely!) The LAST thing you need is to go from a deeply dysfunctional relationship into another relationship with someone you don't know. For all you know he's as big an arse as your P! He certainly wasted no time separating and hooking up with someone else...
anyone meeting MY x would have thought him lovely, adorable etc. he'd have told you how he always supported us, bought me the best etc etc etc. He may have told you I'd been in a mental institute for 5 years. Or just that I'd been depressed.
The truth however is a leetle different to his version.
What YOU need, my dear, is to sort yourself out first, get out, get somewhere new, and settle. THEN spend some good quality time learning all about YOU and why you would have accepted this level of shite in a relationship, and then work on setting that imbalance right again.
hey hissy...your post makes a lot of sense ..he has been separated a while now 6 months or so i found out dp just didnt tell me...i feel like i wont meet someone whos right for me ...like ill pick another wrongun ..its not often i connect with someone in that way ...ive tried my best to get him out of my head joined college meeting up with friends more etc nothing has worked and ive got a massive lump in my throat..
You WILL pick another wrongun unless you realise that you are worth more.
Can you get yourself Why Does He Do That by Lundy Bancroft. Or better yet, get yourself onto the freedom programme. Women's Aid can help you with this.
This guy was a catalyst. He'd not be right for you if he'd have started a relationship with you when you are still living with his 'mate'.
This guy showed you how other people are nice. Well you can have NICE too, but you need to get yourself into a place that means you can accept and expect nice.
If someone comes flying in on a white horse now and tries to rescue you, chances are he'd be an abuser too. so you need to fix yourself, then fix your twat radar and then work out what YOU want from a man and what YOU will and will NOT be prepared to accept, then go for it.
Invest this time in yourself. Invest the love, the attention and the care you need into YOU. You are long overdue it!