Brief bit of background... 40 y/o... Been with DP 4.5 years, have a lovely DD 2.5. I've had health issues relating to the birth that have resulted in me now needing a hysterectomy. I've recently (this week) been prescribed citalopram for depression/anxiety.
Although I've always been insecure/had low self esteem, it wasn't the issue that it's become since I had DD. DP can say the most innocent things to me and sometimes I brush them off, but often I dwell on them (in bed, when I can't sleep) and twist them into something horrendous... I tend to take things to the extreme and don't know why... For example, he'll joke that he likes "older women" because I'm a tiny bit older than him, but I then get it into my head that he's into REALLY old women... I know that makes me sound a really sick and deep down I know it's not true, but I'll start accusing him of it. Most of the time he's really patient with me and reassures me, but sometimes (understandably) he gets pissed off. This is just one example of the many ways I twist things he says...
He's never done or said anything to make me behave this way and I don't know why I do it or how I can stop. I've also started to get horrible flashbacks to when I was raped in my teens and mid-20s and wonder if this is anything to do with it?
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Please help me understand why I twist things and what I can do to stop it...
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FedUpWithPMT · 15/09/2011 19:46
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