Hello all, Im sorry this is long, need to rant and get it all out.
A bit about me....I am 23 and he is 39 we have been in a relationship for 18 months and it has been a rollercoaster since day one.
I am sat here today with a black eye from him and we have now split up.
My entire soul has been destroyed, for every 'nice' day there are always at least three 'abusive' days. The mood swings were so hard to live with. I couldnt say anything out of place. He drank every day. I was accused of sleeping with other people a lot. I wasnt allowed to go anywhere without him.
The emotional abuse was a lot worse than the physical abuse. The insults were so horrible, nobody would even talk to their dog that way.
He is so nice to everyone else. After he punched me in the face we had to go to my mums wedding and he acted like nothing had happened. So normal. Centre of attention, dancing on stage, doing kareoke. I knew they all knew so I was embaressed.
Anyway.....He left me tonight after another argument which was of course my fault.
I know its the right thing to do and I know I can get on with my life now, but how do you get over someone who made you mentally dependant on them? I say I love him but Im not even sure thats what it was.
The stress of being with him put me on meds for depression. (This obv gave him the right to call me mad)
He is now going round calling himself the victim so I have lost all but one friend (who is an ex of his so knows what I am going through)
I just need to know that I will come out of the other end of this ok. I am so confused and dazed right now.
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I've left tonight after 18 harrowing months and need support from you lovely ladies
craftyknickers · 25/08/2011 01:41
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