Was going to name change but decided not to.
I've just been sorting through some of DH's things (he knew I would be doing, I wasn't snooping) and found a stash of porn dvds.
I feel sick.
Ever since I've been with him we have had arguments over porn. He sort of came-of-age using porn as I was his first sexual partner.
We nearly split up when I was pregnant with DD1 as he bought porn and lied to me about what it was- it was the lying to my face that angered and hurt me, not necessarily that it was porn he bought. Up until that point I would have trusted him with my life. I just can't stand being lied to.
I think he has continued using porn but he knows I hate it. I'm not trying to police what he does when alone, I know he may want to masturbate and that's fine but why can't he just use his imagination like I do?
A couple of years ago when DD2 was about 7 months old, after a rough patch, I found out that he registered with an extra marital affairs website. At first he said he hadn't been on it, he must have clicked it by accident, maybe someone had hacked his e-mail he looked me in the eyes and said he loved me too much to ever do that...and I believed him idiot that I am. Of course the next night I snooped on the laptop and found his profile on there...even when I confronted him he swore that he hadn't, when I was looking right at the page!
I gave him another chance, we had very small children, I had no money, it seemed to difficult to leave, but obviously since then I've found it hard to trust him.
At Christmas his workmates apparently got him some porn dvds as a joke present (he's told them I hate it) and he showed me one or two and snapped them and put them in the bin, to show honesty. But now I have just found this stash in his work stuff, some are out of their packets so must have been used but I don't know when. If I confront him, he will lie as he has always done.
What do I do now? I've had enough. And for the first time I feel I could be emotionally strong enough to be a single parent, but still in a dire financial situation as I'm a SAHM with no savings and no job.
Am I just overreacting?
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grr- found H's porn stash, am I overreacting?
PhishFoodAddiction · 13/08/2011 14:02
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