Hi all, this is my first post....please be gentle!
I feel trapped for a multitude of reasons, ~~I will give some back story in the hope that the good folks of MN can help me with this...
I am an aussie citizen living in and married to an English man for the past 14 years.
We have two kids 9, 13. I have no family here, (but thankfully, lovely friends) and have born the brunt of MIL's bullying (verbal, once physical- slammed a crutch into my leg that had 40 stitches, I was just out of hospital the day before) She has thrown a multitude of insults at me, including, the very awful (and untrue!) i wasn't brought up properly' to insults about my country (they've never been!) and my family (who they've met once) I have never once retaliated in a rude manner- despite being desperate to tell her to fuck off.
Basically, I have been yelled at, insulted and ostracised within their family. All in all, after the door incident I have cut off all contact with them. I have had no support from H over this. He believes that it takes two to tango- which is true, however, I have never been disrespectful. I have remembered birthdays and brought gifts- I have tried, I really have. Family is really important to me, and with mine being so far away, I wanted to be part of his.
Prior to the last MIL incident, H assaulted me. Basically hit me over the head with a large torch which knocked me to the ground, spraining my wrist and causing a great big lump on my head. He was pissed, our ds was present.
It wasn't the first time. (He is not a habitual wife beater,) yet, he feels no remorse. (Apparently, I piss him off til he snaps!?)
For the past 6 months we have been living in seperate rooms, I want a divorce- but the thing holding me back is our son- he adores his father and would be devestated if we split. DD who is the eldest, has told me to stop putting up with it and to move on. H claims he cannot afford to move out- despite having investments which could be sold.
H has the occasional psyco interlude when pissed- the most recent was a couple of weeks ago when his friend was staying over. He flipped for no apparent reason and accused me-in a threatening and violent manner-of all sorts of imaginary crimes- i scarpered upstairs to get away. He apologised later- but made it clear that it was basically my fault.
He is very 'jealous' of me, which sounds wierd, but has demonstrated jealousy, paranoia and unjustifable anger on so many occasions, I am really just sick of it.
Here's the problem. I desperately want to return to Oz with the kids. I am not even sure if i legally can. I am scared to see a solicitor incase i am told that i cannot take the kids out of Blighty.
If I divorce, I am left in poverty.
Sorry it's so long. I feel depressed just typing it.
Thanks for any advice x
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arrgh · 01/08/2011 20:42
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