9 months ago the most wonderful man I have ever met told me our relationship had to end. Hes ten years younger than me and wants children and I can't have any more now. For months we cried and for months he told me he loved me but it had to end because he needs to be a dad one day. We worked in the same open plan office. It was ghastly. We tried to be friends but would either end up crying or having sex or both or worse arguing horribly - I said some really dreadful things about broken promises, called him dreadful things. Lost my cool a number of times when he would try and keep me in his life but at a distance. I couldn't handle it and eventually we drifted into no contact - mainly instigated by him because he could see I wasn't really moving on. I have done everything the books say in the last few months. I have started exercising like a mad thing, taken up new hobbies, and now in the last 2 weeks changed job. I thought he would say goodbye. But he didn't. I left on my last day - deliberately engineered to be a day when he wouldn't be there - and thought he would get in contact to acknowledge that we wouldnt ever see each other again if he didn't act then. Nothing. I want to forget him but he's on my mind 24/7. For 9 months I have been in this pain. What more can I do? how do I let go of this feeling of desperate loss? I feel like a love sick teenager.
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