I have a dp who I've been with for quite a while. We don't live together. He is a bit controlling about how I have the house and apparently finds it completely unacceptable for any of the children's toys to be lying around the house and thinks literally everything should have a place. He's one of those super-tidy people, and I, although I think cleaning is important and I can understand that some people are like that don't mind if a few things are out of place.
So at the weekend he said that he's stressed about how I run the house and he thinks every time the children ask me if they can do something I say 'yes' and he thinks I should expect them to help tidying the house. He does have a point, but I have a 2 year old who constantly pulls things out. He says this is no excuse for letting them get toys out, his family at home have 11 children and their house is perfect blah, blah, blah.
I have been ill again and didn't welcome the confrontation and reminded him I wasn't brought up the same way as him to think that everything depends on a spotless house. Then yesterday he suddenly said he's going to leave the country soon. I was really upset because he sounded as if he meant it. I began to think it wasn't about the house and that he obviously just isn't happy with me any more. However he didn't leave my house at any time. Eventually he said he did not intend to leave the country and all these conversations led to him initiating sex which I felt he meant to impress on me something - I can't describe it. When he saw how upset I was I caught a look of triumph on his face. He's always said he loves me and he wants us to have a future.
By the end of yesterday I felt so confused and drained that I could not see the situation clearly at all.
Ditch this man; you do not need this low life in your life. You say he's a bit controlling (you don't say!); there's a red flag right there.
Your only saving grace here is that you do not live with him.
Do read "Why does he do that?" written by Lundy Bancroft; this lowlife is in those pages. His actions in your third paragraph are chilling and designed to control and abuse you. Controlling behaviour is abusive behaviour; this is all about power and control and he wants absolute over you.
He does not love you, he does not know the meaning of the word.
Get him out of your life before he further ruins it. He is more than happy to drag you and by turn your children down with him.
He will start on the children soon enough if you allow it particularly if he was (heaven forbid) to move in with you.
Children will accept anyone who does nice things for them; its what he is doing to you their mother (i.e control you) which they will also see and pick up on. That will be far more damaging to them in the long run.
I read that you have been ill again but really this sort of abuser (and I retierate that controlling behaviour is abusive) will not do your physical let alone mental health any favours. Controlling men can take years to recover from; their damage is immensely harmful to all those in their firing line.
Sorry Attila, I meant physically ill - I keep getting respiratory infections since having swine flu last year. My mental health is very good at the moment, I'm happy to say that I've had no episodes for at least 18 months and no dialgues running through my head, thanks to a very good psychtherapist.
We have clashed a little from the beginning because of cultural differences. I had thought that generally he seemed like a good person and is certainly liked by other people. I couldn't believe what happened yesterday tbh. He also seemed to expect me to just forget all about it like it never happened.
"Cultural differences" - stop making excuses for him. Here's the question - why on earth would you continue to allow a man into your house who makes you feel this way? I'd change the locks, then ring him and tell him it's over. But that's just me. What do you want to do?
It all sounds quite extreme, what we're saying, doesn't it? But this is how it begins. You saw what you saw, even if he's trying to pretend nothing happened.
He is "stressed" about how you run your own house? Do him a favour. Let him go. I'm sure there are plenty of women who feel as he does about the importance of a spotless house. Maybe they get their 2-year-olds to help with the tidying too [hhmm]]
It is all about control, domination, power and showing that he is the boss of you.
He gets to put you down on your housekeeping, tell you that you are inferior/will never be good enough and then initiates sex during which he is getting off on how much better he/his way is than you/yours.
He threatens he is leaving to upset and throw you off balance. Then uses sex again as a weapon.
None of this is done with any good feeling towards you.
It is starting with little things right now, the state of your house. It will escalate if you let it.
I thought he was a good person and loved me. There were a couple of other times where he tried to dominate me and I stood my ground and told him I wouldn't put up with it and he apologised and then I didn't see the behaviour again.
But I've read that it's a really bad sign when someone tries to throw you off balance in a relationship. I do understand what you're all saying but I'm feeling very shocked by this latest thing.