This is going to sound mad but im actually jealous of my cousin... She has just announced she is 10 week pregnant where as i had a recent miscarriage, we havent spoke in nearly 10 years since she argued with my nan, and has only recently got back in touch with her, Im my nans main carer and dont mind 1 bit that she goes round now and again to keep her company so its not jealousy in that way, more the fact that shes pregnant. I know for a fact her husband didnt want any more children just yet nor did he want to have to move to a bigger house, both of which he is now being forced to do because of her broodiness.
I keep wishing something bad would happen to her, im not a nasty person but for some reason this has really riled me, i know it seems obvious why but its more the fact that growing up we were each played off against each other through my nan, now i get to hear all the stories again where ive been really happy the past 10 years having nothing to do with that whole side of the family, her dad has also made a comeback but nobody apart from my nan (his mum) speaks to him, theirs a lot to go into about their family and most of it isnt good, but i really wish shed never got back in touch, as i look after my nan i spend a lot of time with her and she always fills me in on what there doing, ive tried ignoring her when she talks about them, told her im not interested at all yet she still tries to tlk to me about them, the latest being how she got an amazing pram for such a good price, i dont know who im more annoyed at my cousin for coming back or my nan for not shutting up, i just know i hate feeling like this!
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How do i stop feeling so jealous??
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Vix1980 · 05/07/2011 21:20
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