Is because I'm frightened of having nothing to do on a weekend.
To explain -
We don't live together, have no children and no joint responsibility. Been together 3 years. There is alot of horrible history between us, he's lied to me, laughed about me behind my back, used me and controlled me. We did split up but then got back together. He seems to be trying harder now but I can't forget al the shit he's done in the past. I'm still angry with him although I never show it. I don't want to be with him, we have no future.
However I have few friends. The friends I do have are always busy on weekends so when my children go to their father's I am on my own and this is when I see DP. We have fun, we go out for food or cook in/order take-away, sometimes go for a drive to the coast etc - I've never admitted this even to myself before but the whole reason I'm still with him is because I don't want to be alone on the weekends.
This is really shit isn't it and I know I need to end it but I'm so scared of the weekends alone, I'm scared I'll get depressed. I have little money to take up new hobbies either.
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CrumbySofa · 01/07/2011 14:48
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