Hello,
Sensitive issue here....Have not posted for a while.
I have been in an emotionally abusive relationship for 8 years. It ended in Jan/feb. He had affair. I totally fell apart at first but now we are separated and feel amazing apart from one thing......
My ex withheld sex from me - he controlled me with it (He has issues - part psychological part functional ). The sex was always not quite right even in the early days. There were always issues with developing intimacy and affection - We did get help and it made a difference for a while, I had DC. Then things got worse.
It got to the point that I was not able to look at him or touch him. Even if I touched him/kissed him in the early days he would pull away and accuse me of just wanting sex.
Sex itself was a taboo subject. Intimacy became impossible.
Then he turned it around saying that I didnt show him affection. It was so loaded with fear I was by that point paralysed by not knowing what to do.
I have no confidence and feel like it was my fault - that there was something wrong with me.
Previous relationships were healthy with no sex issues so i realise that it was him.
Now I just need to have a good experience.
Any advice about how to go about this.
Anyone have a similar experience and get past it somehow.
Thank you for reading
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Moving on - sex and intimacy after years of rejection.
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Sillyflower · 23/06/2011 10:44
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